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LSOF poetry: Deep

Deep
By: Angie Sarich

Sometimes the depth of my heart
is to heavy to bring to the surface
of my mind.
Its as if my thoughts dived into
my veins and the blood circulation
beats of new days.
The sun shines from a different side of my
world, and reflects
from the surface of monarch butterflies
and honey bees.
Its rays seem to be caught in the scent
of the magnolia tree.
Yet the same blue sky and white clouds
capture my view from above me.
There is a strange serenity around me,
and I’ve never been one to fear peace,
but sometimes in the stillness of the moment,
I feel a tear fall from my eye…
and wonder if maybe
I still need the noise.

Deuteronomy 30:16

For I command you today to love the LORD your God, to walk in his ways, and to keep his commands, decrees and laws; then you will live and increase, and the LORD your God will bless you in the land you are entering to possess.

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Out of the stillness, the trees start to dance. Sway back and forth. You can smile now, because the wind has returned,
and God is moving!

Something that you notice though…the branches of the trees start to crack and whistle. And all around its like a symphony of a breaking tree limbs.

The wind has changed direction.

I wonder if maybe you are in the ” eye of the storm” stage, and I wonder how you might be handling it.
Are you believing He will get you through, are you believing that He knows what is best out of the situation?

I hope that my story has encouraged you, because the next part will blow your mind as it has completely for me.

I will begin by saying, I’ve posted about ” Spiritual vs. Earthly timeline” and how there is the whole other part we don’t realize is happening in the background of our life, but we concentrate so much on the earthly.

Here is my timeline for ya:

I got a blessing in the mail—>I went to Deeper Still and met Beth Moore:)—>I received a class grade for all the effort and not the intelligence—>I went to Savannah and got to spend sometime with great friends…

OKAY, the next part is where it gets crazier.

I have been praying to God about showing me what the next step is. I knew it in my heart that He wanted me to leave FL, but I wasn’t quite sure where. So I had it on my heart that He wanted me in Savannah…I wasn’t sure.

While I was in Savannah, I needed to attend a church service. Nicole and I found a church locally that seemed to be a religion I was used to. We walk in, we sit down..and um, realized we were a little different.
The music was amazing, but the message…not the best.

The Pastor was supposed to be speaking on Joshua 4, ” If these stones could talk, what would they say?” well,
without going into it, I’ll just say I had five sentences of message notes…and the Word wasn’t mentioned for an hour in a half!
I ended up walking out.

I walked into the CVS and I was there to get a drink, noticed the line was insanely long.
So before I walked out the door I stopped and decided I would give my name to the manager there,
” I am a manager at the store in FL, and will eventually be looking to transfer maybe up here
if anything should come available in a few months or so.”
The girl took my name and said sweetly, ” We will keep you in mind if anything should come up.”
Nicole and I then left and proceeded to a coffee shop.(as if that should shock you.)

I went home got on the computer and decided if I could hear something good
Beth Moore would have a message on, oneplace.com.
I put the most recent message on the player and listened.
Beth began speaking on Joshua 3 and 4! I am NOT joking.

” God is going to take you to a place you might not be ready to go yet, but you must go. Have courage”

I didn’t really know why, but I began crying, something in my spirit felt God moving, and I wasn’t sure what He was going to do.

I got a phone call the next morning as I was watching Joyce Meyer, she was talking about ” Do it scared.”

It was a store manager at another CVS. He had contacted the store I dropped my name off at, and said his manager had given notice and wondered if they knew of anyone. The girl I had spoken to that day had given him my name.
And that He would like to meet with me.

I got off the phone with..” What was that?” to Nicole. She and I laughed our heads off..could this be for real?

It WAS for real…and I did meet with him, and I leave to move my state of FL…and move to Savannah Georgia,
in 9 days!

Everything is falling into place so this can happen..

I almost can’t finish this post, because the tears are welling up in my eyes…

God heard my prayers. He answered me. He said ” I want you to go to Savannah, Angie.”

So here I go, I am packing up, and I am moving away from everyone I know and love! and I am moving to a state to friends that I met in 2001 and I would never thought would still be in my life today…

It was all part of His plan..

It was always apart of His plan…

He is amazing.

And on a side note, I saw ” Life Today” this morning, and Beth is talking on Psalm 139…” I am fully known”
and I loved it!

Love you all.
angie

LSOF: The Faith Storm

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A rainbow that appeared in the sky after precious time with God:)

I am standing here at the wall of Lake Monroe. Above me ominous clouds seem echo visually over the entire horizon.
Sweet drops of rain fall over me, and on this page.
The water is so calm, barely rippling…
My friend showed me this morning a verse she is learning in her bible study, ” The Truth Project”.

Romans 1:20
For since the creation of the world God’s invisible qualities—his eternal power and divine nature—have been clearly seen, being understood from what has been made, so that men are without excuse.

God’s attributes can clearly be seen if we look hard enough.

The Lord brought to my heart on the drive here the hurricanes that we’ve had here in FL in the past.

I remember standing outside as the winds became more severe. The rain pelted everything around, and the trees held onto their roots for dear life…

He showed me that our faith in Him is just like being inside a hurricane.

The roughness of the winds are just really if you think about it the force of God’s blessing and will over our lives.
Something else that my friend and I discussed was that you don’t know what it is like to experience something good or something bad, until you experience it.

It is just so when it comes to walking through God’s will.

Thing after thing can happen, and make you smile or bring you straight to your knees, and then…
things seem too still for comfort. The sunshines on you, and blue skies are clearly above, but
you don’t feel like you are really in God’s will…because nothing is happening.

It’s what is called being inside the eye of God’s will.

This is the part where He looks down from heaven and sees that in the stillness, if we will still believe.

This is the place our souls wait for the Lord to take us into another direction of wind.

I am in that place right now. But something that made me cry when He spoke it to my heart.
The eye isn’t the only place we have blue skies, that they are all around us through the storm,
He is always in control.

To think that God even decided the shapes the clouds turn every moment.

The wind blows gently on me…its God’s gentle spirit.
Reminding me He is love…and He is still in everything.

This one part of Hebrews 3:12 really struck me today.

See to it, brothers, that none of you has a sinful, unbelieving heart that turns away from the living God.

I look out at all this, and think to myself…How can I think for one second that God couldn’t handle my little world?

I saw the movie, ” Amelia” today. I wanted to watch a movie that was going to clearly reflect God.

Maybe Amelia didn’t make it across the ocean, but I think her heart met with God clear before she ever took flight that day, and was already prepared to meet Him.

I want to have a faith that reaches to the skies.

Of course it would take more that saying it…for it to happen.

Right this moment, as I hear the rumble of the airplane behind me…I say…

I’ll believe you Lord, in even this.


Blessings,
Angie

What are your thoughts?

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I decided to title this post in the way it was spoken to my heart of on Monday morning, as it was written in my prayer journal:)

God has just been speaking to my heart a lot lately, well, He does everyday, but I guess its clearer to my heart now, more than ever:)

You see, the thing to realize as I have realized. There are two timelines to our lives.
We have an earthly timeline, but we often forget about the other: Spiritual timeline.

This time last year, I was stuck in the middle of a cult. I was lost, hurt, and so alone. I had plenty of people around me
every sunday, tues morning, thursday morning, and thursday night. Those were the times I studied and went to kingdom hall meetings.

There is something desperately wrong when you see people everyday, and you still feel alone.
My heart knew something wasn’t right, but I ignored it.

I don’t want to get into the whole story again here, but I’ll just tell you some of the vital things I have learned from that experience.

While I was have all those feelings, and while I felt like I wasn’t sure if my faith was the faith I believed in, or the people in my life if they were to be trusted..
While I was in such a financial crunch, barely being able to afford the rent on my own, and going to sleep instead of eating to save the little bit I had…
While I was standing at the beach looking into the ocean, wondering if there was really a Savior…my heart became weak to believe it…

Oh I could go on, but the point I am making is that was my earthly timeline…that is what I could see going on in front of me at the time.

There was all along as much more impressive timeline that I was going through too. The spiritual one.

I don’t regret anything that happened in that timeframe, because I can see the timeline, I can see the results.

I am going to visit my friend Nicole in Savannah in a few days.
I have known her since 2001.

Its a crazy story though. It is regarding the timeline that I’m talking about. I was unaware at the time, but can look back and see all of it.

I was around my friends Scott and Lisa from Z88.3, Who are now on KLOVE; I was with my friend Ashley the first night, but the second I was by myself. So I decided to go knowing at least they would be there.
I hung out with them, and other radio staff for a good while, and then it was time to go backstage with Michael W. Smith,
and I wasn’t allowed to go backstage of course.

So that was it, I was alone, in a crowd of people.

I decided to go to another concert that was playing, it was Rebecca St. James. I got talking to some girls up front as we all danced to RSJ singing. It was Lori, Shannon, and a girl named Nicole.

Little did I know at the time, it was another part of the timeline starting. Lisa would soon move away, and come back again,
but that friendship would soon clearly end and a new friendship would begin.

Nicole and I didn’t talk for a good 5 yrs, and she is the only one I kept in touch with, interesting enough wasn’t even a Christian. She’s a dear friend. She’s seen me through a lot since then.

I would soon later see where my purpose in her life was about. My mom has Chron’s disease, and her mom got it a few years ago, and died of it last year. I was able to see that God brought me to her life, because I would be the one that would understand every part that she had to deal with.

I get to see her in 3 days, I am so excited…it is a friendship that is a lasting one, and I am moving up to Savannah sometime in 2010; God’s leading the way completely.

That is what true evidence of the timeline can look like.

Whatever your life has been like, whether its been the last few days, weeks, years…know this, He is in charge of all of it,
and there is a bigger picture that you cannot see just yet.

2 Corinthians 4:6-7
” For God who said, ” Let light shine out of the darkness, ” made his light shine in our hearts to give us the light of the knowledge of the Glory of God in the face of Christ.”

And here is a promise that makes this timeline so real for us from the Word.

2 Corinthians 4:8-10
” We are hard-pressed on every side, but not crushed, perplexed but not in despair, persecuted, but not abandoned, struck down, but not destroyed. We always carry around in our body the death of Jesus, so that the life of Jesus may also be revealed in our body.”

Earthly timeline versus Spiritual timeline…

2 Corinthians 4:13
” It is written: I believe; therefore I have spoken.” With the same spirit of faith we also believe and therefore speak.”

Regardless of what we go through, He still is in charge, we don’t even speak about Him without His help.

Daniel 2:20-22
” He changes times and seasons,
he sets us kings and deposes them.
He gives wisdom to the wise
and knowledge to the discerning,
He reveals deep and hidden things,
he knows what lies in darkness,
and light dwells with him.”

He changes the times and seasons: this means that He also is aware of the timeline we are going through, and He is waiting to see the point to step in and cross over into the earthly timeline.
I was removed from a place I was living, and job I had, plus a very bad group of people…physically moved by God.

I also had a few very cool things happen over the last two months that have blown my mind, and didn’t know God would ever intervene in that way.

He sets up kings and deposes of them; this means that in doesn’t matter who is in charge, whether its the President of the United States, a parent, a boss, or a teacher etc.
God is above all of this, He can MAKE them have a change of heart.
Again, I have seen this happen to me personally, and again, BLOWN away by Him:)

He gives wisdom to the wise, and knowledge to the discerning; Its important to remember that every message at church, every wise person you know, or watch on tv, or whatever the case may be…
God spoke to them first.

He knows what is hidden in darkness and light dwells in him; okay, again, evidence of the spiritual timeline.

2 Corinthians 5:1
” Now we know that if the earthly tent we live in is destroyed we have a building from God, and eternal house in heaven, not built by human hands.”

2 Corinthians 5:16
” So from now on we regard no one from a worldly point of view, Though we once regarded Christ in this way, we do so no longer.”

We must realize that within our earthly timeline that even though the stuff is going on with us, with other people;
we must see them not as how they appear in front of us, but we must remember to look at them like Jesus would,
regarding the spiritual timeline, what can be learned..

2 Corinthians 7:1
” Since we have these promises, dear friends, let us purify ourselves from everything that contaminates the body, and the spirit perfecting holiness out of reverence for God.”

Also, we need to focus on the spiritual timeline with the decisions we make. We have to realize how they may affect us down the road.

2 Corinthians 7:4(second part)

” I am greatly encouraged in all my troubles, my joy knows no bounds.”
We know deep down that there surely is a deeper bigger meaning in everything, we just have to focus on it.

2 Corinthians 4:18
” For we fix our eyes on not what is seen, but what is unseen, for what is seen is temporary but what is unseen is eternal.”

So I will leave you with this thought today. Remember as soon as you walk away from your computer, or as soon as you speak to someone for the first time today…whatever it may be…focus on the best of this day. God is totally here with you,
and He is leading you through both sets of time.

God bless.

Angie

Did you ever watch the television show, about the girl who could cross her arms and blink her eyes and could make miracles happen:) Most of the time, the things she made happen were not always appropriate for the situation.
She was a genie, imperfect, little naive, and most of the time was sent to the ” bottle” to think about what she did wrong.

A word to my heart today was, ” God does it right the first time.” and AMEN TO THAT!

I think we have become such a society of people that ” waits” to see if the other sources will pan out before God.
We wait to see if the boss says we will get the promotion, we wait to see if that teacher might give us a passing grade, we wait on that friend to call us to vent our issues, we wait for those ” biblical” conferences to hear a word from God, we wait for the perfect song to come on the radio…I could go on.

I have so many bible verses going through my brain right now, so bare with me…but here’s a thought.

What if instead of waiting on the world, we just went to God…where we don’t have to WAIT to talk to Him, where He will share words of wisdom to our heart and prepare us to realize whether or not we are READY for that promotion, or if the grade in that class is something that is worth stressing over, or maybe praying for that friend instead of waiting for them to be there for us, and maybe just maybe praying about a conference or a church message to not just affect you and give you a word, but other people…

We end up waiting so much, because God waits on us to go to Him. When we don’t He just kind of sits back and says,
” You know I wanted to bless them with this, but they only want a little bit it seems.”

God SO wants to give us all the blessing He has for us. The thing about it though is we have to work for that blessing in our own heart. We have to make that effort.

I had an amazing time praying the other day, for the first time I went through my cel phone and just started praying for people by name…it was an awesome experience.

I pictured God at a desk with His hands folded on the desk nodding at me as I told Him each prayer.

Thinking any issue is something you can handle on your own, or a friends issue…you are just setting yourself up to be disappointed. You can’t make miracles happen…no matter how much you stare at water, you can’t turn it into wine…SORRY!

We have to understand the character of God to understand how our prayers might be answered. We’ll never know exactly how He will answer our prayers, but He does give us an idea.

Have you ever been sitting quietly, and out of the blue you either start hearing in your heart half of a song lyric, or bible verse…and you try to think where its from and when you heard it?

That is God talking to you. And you will know it, because it will be confirmed more than once.

This is what was spoken to me yesterday during prayer. I just have to add that I have done the Beth Moore ” Daniel” study, but its been forever, and its not a book I really get into often, so when I began hearing this part, ” He changes times and seasons” I was like, ” Hey, that is in Daniel…and where exactly in the Old testament is that again?” and as I was figuring this out and starting to go through it I heard, ” Daniel 2″ I turned to it, and there it was right in front of me.

I would have chalked it up to coincidence, because that is my human tendency, but as soon as I used the words,
” I believe God for this.” POP-UP! Joyce Meyer started to talk on Daniel 6.

Am I quite sure exactly what God is saying right now, no I’m not, but I have an idea that He is trying to bring wisdom, so I can begin to understand what He means.

He’s a great God. He isn’t as secretive as we think. He just shares things with us in His time.
Take a look and read this verse…and my ending thought for you…

Don’t try to make miracles happen…whatever that means to you, just don’t. Let HIM.

Daniel 2:21-23

“He changes times and seasons;
he sets up kings and deposes them.
He gives wisdom to the wise
and knowledge to the discerning.

He reveals deep and hidden things;
he knows what lies in darkness,
and light dwells with him.

I thank and praise you, O God of my fathers:
You have given me wisdom and power,
you have made known to me what we asked of you,
you have made known to us the dream of the king.”

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UPDATE: PLEASE VISIT THIS LINK, A CALL TO PRAY!…Beth Moore and Living Proof

My number #19 verse came out of the blue late last night. It was a totally different memory verse, but after a series of events, I just felt it clear to my heart that this one needed to be about memorizing the ” shield of faith”

Last night, we prayed on twitter against spiritual warfare.

Along with this verse I just want to add this; because its the only thing I could remember last night in praying:

1. God is who He says He is.
2. God can do what He says He can do.
3. I am who God says I am.
4. I can do all things through Christ.
5. God’s Word is alive and active in me.

Read this verse people, memorize it, meditate on it…we need to remember how to stop the fiery darts of the evil one,
he is very real, and he wants to mess with our lives…we need to be prepared!

Be Blessed:)

Angie

LSOF: Deeperstilled…

Over a year ago, I attended ” Living Proof Live” with Beth Moore.

I got to meet some wonderful people, hear a good word, and just bask in the presence of God.

But my heart did not attend that conference that day.

It’s easy to get wrapped up in emotion of things.

It’s easy to sing songs, and shout out a few “amens” and ” hallelujahs”, but all of all of it is just

” going through the motions” unless your relationship with Jesus is solid.

Mine at the time was not.

A warning to you dear friends; you can be ” going through the motions” and never realize you are doing it!

I did however have a good friend reach out to me. Georgia Jan was standing behind me at the conference. We prayed together, and she told me to ” get out” of the religion that I was entangled in. I can’t believe to this day that I even told her about it. I wrote a letter to Living Proof telling them of my experience and how I was a changed person after the conference and blah,blah, blah.

So I look back on that letter, and that prayer time with Jan, and in my heart I knew

I had lied to myself, and to them.

It wasn’t a lie I recognized though, it was a lie that made me instead just quit blogging, and ignoring facebook messages, and

text messages from my siestas.

Eventually, I did fall back into the religious cult I was into before.

Because my way out wouldn’t be through a conference, or a prayer with a friend…

My way out was only through GRACE alone, and I think this bares repeating,

Beth Moore is amazing, and my friend Jan is amazing..and all those from my church who told me to stay away from the religious cult I heard them speak…but inside I didn’t understand what was going on from the inside or the outside of me.

It wasn’t until I was on the floor curled up in tears that I saw Jesus again, face to face; but getting to that point was a long journey.

Deeper Still was an seriously phenomenal conference, but it had nothing to do with Kay, Priscilla, Beth or my siestas and friends I saw while I was there…

I received a very sweet phone call a few days before the conference, and it so blessed me.

I heard Ephesians 3:20-21 in my heart after the call.

Now to him who is able to do immeasurably more than all we ask or imagine, according to his power that is at work within us, 21to him be glory in the church and in Christ Jesus throughout all generations, for ever and ever! Amen.

The funny thing was, I heard the verse, but I was so used to hearing it and saying it, that I lost focus on what the true message of it was!

I gave a list already of the people I got to meet and see at the conference, but let me just tell you that it was as if God had planned a special day for me, as in like a spiritual party to show me how proud He was of me for sticking with it, after hitting rock bottom a good 7 months ago.

” God’s word is alive and active and sharper than any two-edge sword” OH AMEN TO THAT!

Priscilla got up to speak, and I am all thinking to myself, ” Oh this will be a good message.” And I can say to you now how much that was an underestimate! God BLEW me away with her message, which interesting enough didn’t have to do with a few verses here and there from Ephesians but EPHESIANS 3:20-21!!!!

Ya, I was a bit floored, and I felt those tears rise up in my eyes.

Oh Jesus, and your surprises:) I love you!

At the end of the conference it was the sweetest thing that God did for me. I of course had already spent sometime chatting with Shelly and Jan, and seeing many other wonderful people; prayed with my friend Alli….just so much good time.

But meeting Beth Moore, that was a very special moment for me. It was almost as if God was standing right there saying to me, ” Okay, Angie, I have one more thing I would like to bless you with today.” When she processed who I was, I saw her face light up, and if I wasn’t in shock I probably would have cried. I watched so many other people reach out to hug her neck, but she was the one to reach out and hug mine. Something I will never forget.

Thank you for the wonderful presents Jesus:)

I don’t know how many of you went to the conference with some uncertainty of what God had for your life, or if you even knew Jesus at all, but I can tell you if your heart is 100% solid for Him, and you don’t worry about what others have to say about the faith you have, and let me just place emphasis on ” YOUR FAITH” then God will bless you and have a Bible verse stalk you to a conference you attend.

I loved Kay and Beth’s messages too. Beth’s message on ” Spiritual Discernment” really hit home for this girl, because I have been THROUGH it.

We have to love with smart eyes, we can’t just let ourselves trust everyone on the planet or we will get hurt. Even if someone says they are a Christian, they can still be ” a wolf in sheeps clothing.” I have encountered that being in the deep religious cult I was apart of for 6 months of my life. These people told me they loved me, and that they would always be there for me…I was told to get rid of my ” Christian” stuff.

But the one true God stood up, and He helped me to get rid of it from my life.

So I ask you to please just hear me on something, next time you go to church, or a conference or whatever it may be,

make sure you have had sometime with Jesus first, make sure you KNOW who Jesus is.

Because our heart can deceive us as soon as the enemy shares his message notes.

Me and Shelly(To Know Him)

This is Shelly(To Know Him) She was the first person to ever comment on my blog:) LONG TIME AGO:) I was glad to finally meet her face to face!

I was only 10 seats away at this time LOL.
I was only 10 seats away at this time LOL.
Me and Georiga Jan

This is an old pic of me and Georgia Jan, unfortunately it was too crazy to have a new one taken...Love you Jan!

AND HERE FOR YOUR PURE ENJOYMENT….

Deeper Still Orlando from Kris Seidenkranz on Vimeo.

Beth Moore
Spiritual Discernment
(Deeper Still notes)

John 14:15-26, John 16:7

The power is not only around us, but in us.

Agape- Love that is demonstrative, emotional love

1 Corinthians – Activate in the reality of experience.

Spiritual Discernment is for a time when you have been:
betrayed
mislead
taken advantage of

2 Timothy 3:12-13

We always do before we know what to do

Ephesians 3:20

Two dimensions of spiritual revelation we desperately need to have:

1- In our human encounters
2- Can I trust what I am sensing?

Here are four question we can ask ourselves:

1. Am I critical or suspicious by nature?
2. Am I jealous or feel threatened by this person?
3. Do I have anything selfish to gain from the outcome?
4. Are my emotions clouding my discernment?

Phillipians 1:9-10

Learn to love others with knowledge and insight.

2 Timothy 3

Do not confuse living people without the discernment to back away from them.

2 Timothy 3:6

We gotta learn to go with our spiritual gut.
We can’t walk in the spirit without walking in intimacy.

Show me a Godly woman I’ll show you a woman who persued Godliness.

Did the spirit within me remain steadfast?

If not, here are 1-4 instructions

1. RUN
2. Take a step back
3. Ask questions in person, face to face!
4. Love with eyes wide open

Obadiah 1:3
” The pride in your heart has deceived you.”

Psalm 116
John 14

Divine revelation in Christ Himself

1 Corinthians 2
Hebrews 12:1-4

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