LSOF: Dreams

I thought I would include in this devotional ;a song that has been playing in my head a lot recently. And I don’t think any other song has ever made more sense. Read it, and I will continue after.

Someone Else’s Dream
By: Faith Hill

Her momma’s still got that sequin gown that she wore in ’68
She taught her early how to smile that smile and wave from
the parade
It took a whole lot of years and tears
For her momma to finally admit
No matter how many stitches and pins
That old dress was never gonna fit

She was daddy’s little girl
Momma’s little angel
Teacher’s pet, Pageant queen
She said, “All my life I’ve been pleasin’ everyone but me,
Waking up in someone else’s dream”

Her daddy used to say, “You’ll make a lovely bride someday
He’ll ride up on a big white horse and just carry you away”
It took twenty-five years and some broken vows
Before they’d finally see
There’s a little more to love and life
Than fairy tales and hand me down dreams

She was daddy’s little girl
Momma’s little angel
Teacher’s pet, Pageant queen
She said, “All my life I’ve been pleasin’ everyone but me,
Waking up in someone else’s dream”

Now she’s got twenty-seven candles on her cake
And she means to make her life her own
Before there’s twenty-eight

She was daddy’s little girl
Momma’s little angel
Teacher’s pet, Pageant queen
She said, “All my life I’ve been pleasin’ everyone but me,
Waking up in someone else’s dream”

That song relates so much to my life; a life I thought I was living, when really is everything, in every little advice from family and friends, I have just allowed myself to be majorly influenced, and now here I am 26 years old, going on 27, and I am stuck carrying all of the dreams in my hands that everyone has wanted for me, and accidentially they dropped to the ground. Because I can’t handle being so many things to so many people.

So I thought I would put it right here, right now, what it is that I want for my life:

I want to teach, I have gone back and forth about it, but nothing brings me more joy than seeing a child smile, and just knowing in their life that maybe has some hardships, that I could possibly make a difference.
I want to teach by my writing, I want to learn how to write a book, maybe one on my life experiences, but also from a realistic outlook of a Christian.
I want to have a husband, I want to wake up in the morning next to someone that I would be able to trust and support a family; and someone that has morals and values that they stand by.
I want a child, and at this point, I don’t care how many God may give me, I just want that chance to not just spend a couple minutes with someonelse’s kid, but to really have my own.

Things I want right now;
I want to learn how to save money so I can have my own home.
I want to be able to spend time alone and not feel like I have something
else to do.
I want just plain and simple, peace.
I want to be taken seriously at home, work, and church.
I want people to quit looking at me like I am a teenager and have
more respect for me, actually believe I can do more.
I want to finish school, including the stupid math course.
I want to take a vacation to GA, MO, and NJ before the end of the year.
I want my past issues to disappear and never return.
I want to read the bible more, and not just that but really have
the time to visualize.
I want a friend that has been there, who is older, and can be in contact with me more
than once a week.

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