LSOF: The Journey to satisfaction…

Good tuesday morning to everyone:)

Believe it or not, this girl has a Word!

” Great peace have they who love your law, and nothing can make them stumble.”
Psalm 119:165

Oh ladies, if you only knew what has been going on…Oh my.

Satisfying Our Hunger

My friend Jen went and bought me a snickers bar last night. I remember holding it in my hands just picturing the chocolatey taste it would have…and how hungry I was, I didn’t last, but 5 seconds more, before I consumed the thing completely.

It got me thinking a little this morning; I don’t think I would have enjoyed the candy bar that much without ever opening, and eating it.

Its the analogy God brought to my heart about the Bible; We all have them, most of us probably have at least more then one in our homes. It looks pretty on our bookshelves for company, and taking it to church gives us the fascad that we are biblical scholars, that we have that hunger for it.

But here’s the question, can our hunger for God’s word be satisfied by carrying around a closed Bible?

If you say Yes, I might have to find something to throw at you…LOL. I’m kidding.

In all honesty ladies, I have lived that way for the last couple months.

1 Chronicles 4:10
And Jabez called on the God of Israel saying, “Oh, that You would bless me indeed, and enlarge my territory, that Your hand would be with me, and that You would keep me from evil, that I may not cause pain!” So God granted him what he requested.

Beth Moore has said that part of the bible is great, the whole concept is kinda cool, but she adds that maybe God might want us to work in the territories we are already in, and let Him enlarge them where we are.

Siestas, this is where my journey stood; I wanted God to move me a different direction, find something that would work for me, and still get His word, and His blessings the way I needed them.

Before I go on, I will add that Beth spoke about the Prayer of Jabez twice in a day, once on her audio book, and once while I was at the conference, to which when she looked right at me and said it, I couldn’t do anything, but bawl.

I decided I would share this with you, while others believe I should keep it to myself, it is my story, its apart of my testimony, and its a warning to those who our wishy-washy in their faith. But I will also add here, that my posts for now on, the focus will be different.

I think I mentioned to you that I started studying with a Jehovah’s Witness, and I didn’t believe there was any harm in it, because I knew my stuff. Okay, Pride comes before a fall lets remember…

Some little things happened in my church that gave room for me to start to pull away from my church, and I moved out here to New Smyrna, because it was closer to work, but also closer to the Kingdom Hall.

I wanted to go someplace fresh, I was done with Christianity the way that I knew it, because it was no longer working for me.

Do I even have to tell you how much of a stronghold the Enemy started to have on me?

I will also tell you, had I not gone to the Living Proof Live conference, I would probably have been further into that religion.

I almost didn’t go, because I felt it was Relgious Propaganda. I even had stoppped wearing my cross on my neck, because it was perceived as an idol.

I prayed with my dear friend Georgia Jan, meeting her the first time, I felt that pull to ask her to pray with me, and she’s a sweet Baptist Pastor’s wife;
and she did without hesitation.

Siestas, it was a 360 from friday, to saturday. God spoke so loud and clear through Beth Moore, and just His spirit alone tapping me on the shoulder.

I am going to write these lyrics out, and then finish writing. It is an amazing song by Travis Cottrell, that hit me hard(its also Youtubed on the post before this.)

In Christ Alone/Solid Rock By: Travis Cottrell

In Christ alone my hope is found
He is my light my strength my song
This cornerstone this solid ground
Firm through the fiercest drought and storm
What heights of love what depths of peace
When fears are stilled when strivings cease
My comforter my all in all
Here in the love of Christ I stand

In Christ alone – who took on flesh
Fullness of God in helpless babe
This gift of love and righteousness
Scorned by the ones He came to save
Till on that cross as Jesus died
The wrath of God was satisfied
For every sin on Him was laid
Here in the death of Christ I live

There in the ground His body lay
Light of the world by darkness slain
Then bursting forth in glorious day
Up from the grave He rose again
And as He stands in victory
Sins curse has lost its grip on me
For I am His and He is mine –
Bought with the precious blood of Christ

No guilt in life no fear in death
This is the power of Christ in me
From life’s first cry to final death
Jesus commands my destiny
No power of hell no scheme of man
Can ever pluck me from His hand
Till He returns or calls me home
Here in the power of Christ I’ll stand

I never felt a song that we so empowering as this one, that reminded me how
much God can overcome every obstacle, by living in the death of Christ.

I still have notes to add from the conference, I just haven’t had a lot of time to write them out.

As I was saying…

I then understood that God wanted to work in my life, and I quit going to the Kingdom Hall, but still talked to this person, and started to attend my church again.

But the foundation was so very shaky, and I couldn’t understand why.

I was getting my Mark to read the bible, and do the bible studies.

I realized that I wasn’t getting my hunger satisfied with God, because I was holding an unopened book in my hand; looking on at God from a distance from let’s say across the room doesn’t do very much.

It was then a couple days ago, a dear friend told me the problem with everything that has happened was, I forgot the origin of my roots with God; and I needed to turn around and start back from the beginning.

There are some other things that got me to this point to, that I won’t mention, because they are being dealt with, but I will tell you, that don’t ever get yourself to that point where you are content where you are in your faith, because God will do some sifting, and it will knock you to the ground in a heartbeat!

So this is where I am now…back in the room of everyonelse at least, back in His arms again, not ashamed for what has happened, because Christ died for me, so I wouldn’t have to be, but just know I am forgiven.

Phillipians 3:12-14
Not that I have already obtained all this, or have already been made perfect, but I press on to take hold of that for which Christ Jesus took hold of me.
Brothers, I do not consider myself yet to have taken hold of it.
But one thing I do: Forgetting what is behind and straining toward what is ahead, I press on toward the goal to win the prize for which God has called me heavenward in Christ Jesus.

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