LSOF: Deeperstilled…

Over a year ago, I attended ” Living Proof Live” with Beth Moore.

I got to meet some wonderful people, hear a good word, and just bask in the presence of God.

But my heart did not attend that conference that day.

It’s easy to get wrapped up in emotion of things.

It’s easy to sing songs, and shout out a few “amens” and ” hallelujahs”, but all of all of it is just

” going through the motions” unless your relationship with Jesus is solid.

Mine at the time was not.

A warning to you dear friends; you can be ” going through the motions” and never realize you are doing it!

I did however have a good friend reach out to me. Georgia Jan was standing behind me at the conference. We prayed together, and she told me to ” get out” of the religion that I was entangled in. I can’t believe to this day that I even told her about it. I wrote a letter to Living Proof telling them of my experience and how I was a changed person after the conference and blah,blah, blah.

So I look back on that letter, and that prayer time with Jan, and in my heart I knew

I had lied to myself, and to them.

It wasn’t a lie I recognized though, it was a lie that made me instead just quit blogging, and ignoring facebook messages, and

text messages from my siestas.

Eventually, I did fall back into the religious cult I was into before.

Because my way out wouldn’t be through a conference, or a prayer with a friend…

My way out was only through GRACE alone, and I think this bares repeating,

Beth Moore is amazing, and my friend Jan is amazing..and all those from my church who told me to stay away from the religious cult I heard them speak…but inside I didn’t understand what was going on from the inside or the outside of me.

It wasn’t until I was on the floor curled up in tears that I saw Jesus again, face to face; but getting to that point was a long journey.

Deeper Still was an seriously phenomenal conference, but it had nothing to do with Kay, Priscilla, Beth or my siestas and friends I saw while I was there…

I received a very sweet phone call a few days before the conference, and it so blessed me.

I heard Ephesians 3:20-21 in my heart after the call.

Now to him who is able to do immeasurably more than all we ask or imagine, according to his power that is at work within us, 21to him be glory in the church and in Christ Jesus throughout all generations, for ever and ever! Amen.

The funny thing was, I heard the verse, but I was so used to hearing it and saying it, that I lost focus on what the true message of it was!

I gave a list already of the people I got to meet and see at the conference, but let me just tell you that it was as if God had planned a special day for me, as in like a spiritual party to show me how proud He was of me for sticking with it, after hitting rock bottom a good 7 months ago.

” God’s word is alive and active and sharper than any two-edge sword” OH AMEN TO THAT!

Priscilla got up to speak, and I am all thinking to myself, ” Oh this will be a good message.” And I can say to you now how much that was an underestimate! God BLEW me away with her message, which interesting enough didn’t have to do with a few verses here and there from Ephesians but EPHESIANS 3:20-21!!!!

Ya, I was a bit floored, and I felt those tears rise up in my eyes.

Oh Jesus, and your surprises:) I love you!

At the end of the conference it was the sweetest thing that God did for me. I of course had already spent sometime chatting with Shelly and Jan, and seeing many other wonderful people; prayed with my friend Alli….just so much good time.

But meeting Beth Moore, that was a very special moment for me. It was almost as if God was standing right there saying to me, ” Okay, Angie, I have one more thing I would like to bless you with today.” When she processed who I was, I saw her face light up, and if I wasn’t in shock I probably would have cried. I watched so many other people reach out to hug her neck, but she was the one to reach out and hug mine. Something I will never forget.

Thank you for the wonderful presents Jesus:)

I don’t know how many of you went to the conference with some uncertainty of what God had for your life, or if you even knew Jesus at all, but I can tell you if your heart is 100% solid for Him, and you don’t worry about what others have to say about the faith you have, and let me just place emphasis on ” YOUR FAITH” then God will bless you and have a Bible verse stalk you to a conference you attend.

I loved Kay and Beth’s messages too. Beth’s message on ” Spiritual Discernment” really hit home for this girl, because I have been THROUGH it.

We have to love with smart eyes, we can’t just let ourselves trust everyone on the planet or we will get hurt. Even if someone says they are a Christian, they can still be ” a wolf in sheeps clothing.” I have encountered that being in the deep religious cult I was apart of for 6 months of my life. These people told me they loved me, and that they would always be there for me…I was told to get rid of my ” Christian” stuff.

But the one true God stood up, and He helped me to get rid of it from my life.

So I ask you to please just hear me on something, next time you go to church, or a conference or whatever it may be,

make sure you have had sometime with Jesus first, make sure you KNOW who Jesus is.

Because our heart can deceive us as soon as the enemy shares his message notes.

Me and Shelly(To Know Him)

This is Shelly(To Know Him) She was the first person to ever comment on my blog:) LONG TIME AGO:) I was glad to finally meet her face to face!

I was only 10 seats away at this time LOL.
I was only 10 seats away at this time LOL.
Me and Georiga Jan

This is an old pic of me and Georgia Jan, unfortunately it was too crazy to have a new one taken...Love you Jan!

AND HERE FOR YOUR PURE ENJOYMENT….

Deeper Still Orlando from Kris Seidenkranz on Vimeo.

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9 thoughts on “LSOF: Deeperstilled…

  1. I read your comments/insights/study notes from Deeper Still/Orlando – thank you very very much! I was GUTTED to have missed it by a “hair” – my husband and I are relocating to Lake Mary, FL next month from London, England… Thank you for your fantastic, inspiring blog! It would be a privilege to meet you “in person” one of these days! God bless you!!

    maria cristina

    • Maria- You are VERY welcome:) I just couldn’t help but not write the ” beginning” process of everything:) God is amazing, and HE has proved that TEN FOLD in my life:)
      Lake Mary isn’t that all far from me, but we’ll see what happens:) Hope you have an easy move and God Bless!

  2. Angie, your honesty is refreshing. In the last year, I have seen so much damage done to souls because of cultish “religion”, and the saddest part is just watching their separation from God.

    I pray that this will turn around as we encourage ourselves and everyone we meet to look UNIT HIM “NOW” FOR HE IS “NOW” ABLE TO DO EXCEEDINGLY, ABUNDANTLY, ABOVE ALL…NOW IS ALWAYS THE RIGHT TIME AND HE IS ALWAYS THE RIGHT SOURCE.

    LaVonne

    • Thank you Lavonne:) Cultish religion is BIG in this nation, and the sad part is it does take all forms. I just know that there is a lot of damage that has happened in my life, and I just want people to see that it isn’t PEOPLE that can save you from the lives we lead..Thinking that will make the HUGEST idol known to man!
      I appreciate you stopping by sweetie!

  3. Angie- I stumbled upon your blog. Fascinating story. I love how God knows just what we need. Thank you for being so real about your struggles. It is always good to remember the only person we need to be following is Jesus.

    • Welcome Brigetta:) Thank you for your comment:) Being real about my struggles girl, it isn’t easy, but I believe God that He can get a message across better than I ever could:) Thanks for stopping by:) Be blessed!

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