LSOF: If Not For…

My brain has plagued me from sleeping as usaul, so I am writing this as my poor cat sleeps next to me. Her eyes looked like she is forcing them to close. Trying not to be disturbed by the blinding light of the room as I type next to her.
If not for me typing…she would be able to sleep soundly.

I have no idea what this post will take direction of, but tonight I was listening to a song I haven’t really heard
much since highschool.
The first part of the title is, ” For..”
It’s a special song to me, because its a moment that only God and I hold secret.

I was so upset one day after class, I don’t remember why, or what it was about. But I remember laying on my bed and this specific song came on the radio.
I grabbed the phone and tried to call one of my close friends…and I only got a busy signal.

If not for the busy signal…I would not be sad anymore…or was that really the truth?

See I was thinking of a specific Bible verse that also starts with ” For..” and its a verse that was also
written in my highschool yearbook…you may or may not know it.

” For I know the plans I have for you, declares the Lord, plans to prosper you and not to harm
you, plans to give you a hope and a future.” -Jeremiah 29:11

I was blaming the busy signal on whether or not I would be “alright”. I was dare to base whether or not I would
survive that moment of hurt on whether or not somone answered the phone?

The word “FOR” is found by my own rough estimate on to have been found 429 times…I am sure there
is a far greater number than that.

Sometimes its a simple word that just takes our own thoughts processes in entire different direction.

I wasn’t a Christian at that point of highschool. I didn’t have any hope in knowing God was there for me.
But I can tell you He did make Himself known in “coincidences”…

I should tell you my friend’s phone was actually busy that day…because she was trying to get through
to me.

As soon as I put the phone down this song was on the radio,

and in the middle of that song…I got a phone call.

My friend wasn’t even aware that I was upset, and I know for sure I remember that moment,
because it was a ” God moment.”

I have wonderful conversations with friends who are a distance away through text, and let me tell you some
of the wisest words can come through text.

We need to just be still for a moment sometimes, and let God do what He has already promised He would do.
Jeremiah 29:11.

My friend said this a few days ago, ” Walk with God, and don’t walk ahead of Him.”

Trying to make that phone call that day; I was trying to go ahead of God…He had the phone call
planned in His time.

I should add that phone call wasn’t just from any of my friends, it was from one of my most admired mentors
in my life. Her calling me did not happen very often.

God is in every moment.

Another “For” that is in the Bible…

” For it is by grace you have been saved, through faith—
and this not from yourselves, it is the gift of God—
9not by works, so that no one can boast. “- Ephesians 2:8

This verse describes giving my heart to Jesus. It describes the time of ” faith” and the people that
became apart of it.
God overlapped Jeremiah 29:11, and added on Ephesians 2:8

I think this verse can be wrapped around in the story of my pastor’s wife, and friend Debbie
holding onto my hand when I was in just complete tears at church one day, and she said the words,
” I am not going to give up on you, because Jesus will not give up on you.”
Again, no clue what I was dealing with, but just a rough time.

I began to understand not only did God have a plan for me, but that plan is fulfilled tenfold by knowing Jesus died
on the cross for me.

I began to understand that the plans I would have for myself in my life, had nothing to do with how God
planned it out.

13yrs forward…

I am back in Florida right now. I have no clue what God has planned, but I know it is by grace I am saved, it is the reason
I go on living and breathing.

I am about to see my church family I’ve known since the end of my teenage years to move on to another part of the
state. And while I myself have moved, it just is so weird to know if I were to move and came back to visit,
they wouldn’t be here.

Another “For” is described in this moment….

14For this reason I kneel before the Father, 15from whom his whole family[a] in heaven and on earth derives its name. 16I pray that out of his glorious riches he may strengthen you with power through his Spirit in your inner being, 17so that Christ may dwell in your hearts through faith. And I pray that you, being rooted and established in love, 18may have power, together with all the saints, to grasp how wide and long and high and deep is the love of Christ, 19and to know this love that surpasses knowledge—that you may be filled to the measure of all the fullness of God.-
Ephesians 3:14-20

I not only know that God has a plan for my life, that my life is sealed by grace, but also that my faith is strengthened and established by love.

I don’t believe anyone can just get up and read the Bible daily just because it has ” interesting” stories, i think there
really has to be a true and deep love of knowing God, or wanting to know more out of that love.

I was inspired to write this post, because I have this same friend that has always been there tell me that God
speaks to her by using “words” sometimes one, sometimes two.

Tonight I got my one.

Who would have ever seen so much in 3 letters.

I wish my friends well, If not for….nothing would be so. It’s about steps its about staying enthused on the journey
in trusting God. Knowing that its going to seem at times that He is just crazy with a sense of humor…
He still knows better.

And I’ll end the whole reason we are who we are and do what we do…

For we are God’s workmanship, created in Christ Jesus to do good works,
which God prepared in advance for us to do.- Ephesians 3:10

We are here because He has a plan for us, because Jesus died for our sins, because He has not let us go at any step
of the way, and because it all was prepared for us…before we took our first breath.

I’m going to say He knows better, and if not for God…

Nothing would be so.

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