LSOF: Status Quo Part 3- Fear

I took this picture yesterday as I was driving. I was really dealing with a lot that was going on. I was also listening to the radio as it played, ” I will praise you in this storm” By Casting Crowns.
The black clouds covered the sky from every direction over me.

If you notice in the middle of the storm, there is a faint rainbow sticking through.

Even in our storms…God’s promises still stands. It doesn’t fail us, it will bring us through.

I wrote a letter to a friend the other day. Normally writing takes me a good 10-30 max to write to someone,
but this letter it felt different. It was as if each word I inked on to the paper, was facing my own fears.
I was letting go of the status quo of…

Letting my past hold me down.

If we don’t keep our past from destroying us, it surely will.

I am almost 30 yrs old. I have allowed so many factors of my life to keep me from moving ahead, but maybe factors
could just be another words for , “fear”…

Afraid of failing. Afraid of success. Afraid of enemies. Afraid of friends. Afraid of rejection. Afraid of Acceptance. Afraid of hate. Afraid of being loved. Afraid of not learning enough. Afraid of learning too much. Afraid of dysfunctional family. Afraid of functional one. Afraid of being misunderstood, and being understood.

What I’ve learned to realize in all of these fears…I couldn’t have been completely afraid of failing, if I was also afraid of what would happen if I did succeed…etc.

I believe we have to start looking at our fears as if they are portholes into exactly where we need to go.
We have to stop being “AFRAID” of them…

I had a Psychology teacher who told our class about one of his clients. His client was afraid of heights.
Every session what they would start doing together was meeting up at this building where one of the floors was made
of complete see thru glass.
He said the man would start out not even looking towards the glass, turn away and fight about it.
But each time they went he would ask the man to take one step towards the glass, and eventually he had
walked over the glass to the other side.

” Do it scared” is a wonderful word from Joyce Meyer I heard last year.

I’ll admit, I am scared to do a lot of things. But what I make myself do now…

I take a deep breath, and then a step.

A family member had asked how I could ever think I could be a teacher, obviously not the most positive person in the world,
but my answer was, everytime I walked into a classroom as a substitute. I would take a deep breath and walk inside.
That breath would last me all day.

Breathing isn’t just something we do to make us feel better and relieve our stresses…it is actually our heart praying,
” God please get me through this today.” but we don’t realize it is what we are doing.

From now on let’s try to get rid of the child hiding ourselves in the corner from life, and instead…
live it to the fullest…
Fears and all.

Psalm 121

I lift up my eyes to the hills—
where does my help come from?
2 My help comes from the LORD,
the Maker of heaven and earth.

3 He will not let your foot slip—
he who watches over you will not slumber;

4 indeed, he who watches over Israel
will neither slumber nor sleep.

5 The LORD watches over you—
the LORD is your shade at your right hand;

6 the sun will not harm you by day,
nor the moon by night.

7 The LORD will keep you from all harm—
he will watch over your life;

8 the LORD will watch over your coming and going
both now and forevermore.

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One thought on “LSOF: Status Quo Part 3- Fear

  1. Isn’t it crazy how we juxtapose our own fear? “I’m afraid not learn, but I’m afraid to learn too much.” Great thoughts. Love your vulnerability-it speaks to me.

    love ya!
    sarah

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