LSOF: Thoughts from the Wilderness

That’s the place you will find me if you are looking for me.
I’m somewhere in a far off desert. I don’t think I really noticed it until now.
But when things disappear before your eyes in your life in sudden ways,
you learn to realize that it was just a mirage. It was not real enough to stay
permanently. It wasn’t real enough to be part of the calling or purpose God has for
my life.

Jeremiah 29:11 (The Message)

This is GOD’s Word on the subject: “As soon as Babylon’s seventy years are up and not a day before, I’ll show up and take care of you as I promised and bring you back home. I know what I’m doing. I have it all planned out—plans to take care of you, not abandon you, plans to give you the future you hope for.

I heard before that Moses was possibly the writer of the book of Genesis, and I think it is just
amazing to me how he was probably in the desert himself with no sense of God’s creation around
him except the blazing sun. It just seems like such a disconnect there. Could it really be that easy to
write about the beginning of the world when all you see around you seems like an empty
and desolate place?

Genesis 1:3-5 (The Message)

First this: God created the Heavens and Earth—all you see, all you don’t see. Earth was a soup of nothingness, a bottomless emptiness, an inky blackness. God’s Spirit brooded like a bird above the watery abyss.

3-5 God spoke: “Light!”
And light appeared.
God saw that light was good
and separated light from dark.
God named the light Day,
he named the dark Night.
It was evening, it was morning—

While this is encouraging to know in the deep part of the heart that Moses, and Paul and so many
other wrote God’s Word during the worst moments of their life, I also wish they would have expounded
a little on those moments. Where they were as they wrote certain things. I just think it would take on a whole new emphasis on the way we see them and the way we view God.

I say all this because I am writing you in my own worst moments.

I have learned that there are more than just a few different kind of wildernesses.
And its based purely on what we need to learn for the step God wants us to take.

I think it is about steps. My mom once drew for me stairs on a piece of paper.
On each step she would write down something I should accomplish before the next step.
I think I might have been just out of Kindergarten. We went through each step on the journey of
life all the way up to graduation.
I think it would be a good idea to visualize the wilderness in the same way with God.
What does He have written on the step ahead of us.
But more importantly; What do we need to accomplish first?

I am doing the “ One in a Million” study by Priscilla Shirer, and something so profound was noticed in the Word. God could have sent the Isrealites an easier, straight shoot way to the next place. However, He chose the wilderness, because He feared if it was too easy for them to get to, they would see the war ahead and turn back to Egypt. Turn back to slavery.

Exodus 13:17

When Pharaoh let the people go, God did not lead them on the road through the Philistine country, though that was shorter. For God said, “If they face war, they might change their minds and return to Egypt.” 18 So God led the people around by the desert road toward the Red Sea.[a] The Israelites went up out of Egypt ready for battle.

This spoke volumes to me, because the wilderness taught them to be determined;
To not allow themselves to be beaten down by the journey,
but to learn from it.

A thought occurred to me this morning as I was doing my morning studying.

I am now well out of my 20’s. I am 2 years away from the age Jesus was when he started ministry.

I am not sure if I am biblically correct on this, but I’m going to suggest that Jesus could have been
my age when he was tempted by Satan in the desert.

Luke 4:1-4 (NIV)

Jesus, full of the Holy Spirit, left the Jordan and was led by the Spirit into the wilderness,2 where for forty days he was tempted[a] by the devil. He ate nothing during those days, and at the end of them he was hungry.
3 The devil said to him, “If you are the Son of God, tell this stone to become bread.”
4 Jesus answered, “It is written: ‘Man shall not live on bread alone.’[b]”

Why I suggest that is this wilderness feels different. I already have all the knowledge God has allowed
me to have to this point about His Word, and about Him. But there was something extra.

I wasn’t angry at God this time around by any means, I wasn’t questioning Him and asking WHY things had happened the way they had. I think half of it was I knew the reasoning, but this time taking it all deeper. This time it is about really growing. This time in this wilderness I feel Him with me.

Exodus 14:21-22(NIV)

By day the Lord went ahead of them in a pillar of cloud to guide them on their way and by night in a pillar of fire to give them light, so that they could travel by day or night. 22 Neither the pillar of cloud by day nor the pillar of fire by night left its place in front of the people.

This is what I’m learning in this time so far, God wants me to leave the child that I used to be here in the wilderness.
He is giving me responsibilities, personally and spiritually. I am seeing everything in such a different light.

1 Corinthians 13:11
When I was a child, I talked like a child, I thought like a child, I reasoned like a child. When I became a man, I put the ways of childhood behind me.
I almost feel in this learning time that I am being given a gift. A gift He has had in His possession before I was born. I feel like He is giving me my own life, that He is ready to place in my hands and trust me with what He wants to give to my life, and show me.

Jeremiah 33:3(NIV)
Call to me and I will answer you and tell you great and unsearchable things you do not know.’

No gift is without a price of course.

I know He has better planned.

So no matter how much the wind and sand burn my face and eyes.
No matter how many blisters I get on the soles of my feet.

This journey is worth it.

I have seen Him. I recognize Him. He wants His influence to radiate on me into this world.

1 Corinthians 13:12(NIV)
For now we see only a reflection as in a mirror; then we shall see face to face. Now I know in part; then I shall know fully, even as I am fully known.

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3 thoughts on “LSOF: Thoughts from the Wilderness

  1. Hope you are doing ok. There’s always a light at the end of the tunnel. Sometimes it’s really hard to see it, though.

  2. Pingback: May I Encourage You? Go into the Wilderness! | Future.Flying.Saucers

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