LSOF: The Greater Things

Sometimes we are faced with tough moments. We all have been there. We have had those moments of “crisis of faith,” and we try to do things our own way, because God just does not seem to be “quick,” enough, or maybe we just have a hard time believing that He really sees what we are going through.

I was dealing with somethings recently that took a toll on my faith, not that I had lost my faith, but that I had lost my focus.  I was distracted.

I would find myself trying to pray, listening to audiobooks, praise and worship music, and letting the Bible lay open in front of me but not getting further than the current page. I was taking notes at church, but not taking in the message.  I wanted so much to get back to the place of growth, but the more I tried I could only vision briar thorns in front of me that I could not see past.

I had grown weary on waiting for what He has promised. I had grown weary on the doctor visits, and financial situations that have held me back, conflicts in family relationships and that one day I really would meet the love of my life, just started to fade from my mind.

The song at church I heard practicing was, “ Blessed be your name.” And I almost lost it, I could not be in that room and hear, “ You give and take away.” Because in my mind, I was seeing somethings disappearing that I had not even yet been given.

A few days later, I woke up in the morning to a phone call for another doctor appointment. They wanted to check to be sure my insurance would be covering it, and placed me on hold for a few minutes, and in those few minutes I prayed about it, and when the nurse came back on the line, I made the decision to decline the appointment. I told the nurse, who was persistent to ask that I would not decline the appointment, that I believed God has a plan for me.

I hung up the phone, and I felt the tears fill my eyes. I then felt pressed on my heart a specific part of scripture that I want to share, because it has stayed with me since that morning and maybe you need it too.

Luke 10:38-42

Mary and Martha

38 Now as they were traveling along, He entered a village; and a woman named Martha welcomed Him into her home. 39 She had a sister called Mary, who was seated at the Lord’s feet, listening to His word. 40 But Martha was distracted with [q]all her preparations; and she came up to Him and said, “Lord, do you not care that my sister has left me to do all the serving alone? Then tell her to help me.” 41 But the Lord answered and said to her, “Martha, Martha, you are worried and bothered about so many things42 but only one thing is necessary, for Mary has chosen the good part, which shall not be taken away from her.”

The part of the passage that laid on my heart that morning was spoken in this way,

“ She has chosen which is greater and it will not be taken from her.”

I was Martha through the things I was dealing with, distracted and overwhelmed with what was in front on me, and trying to keep control, trying to just keep on the happy face and go about the day, I was trying to do well at my job, with my family and friends, and serving at church, and everything suddenly felt like a hamster wheel that just kept going and going.

Staying busy does not allow us time to be still.

It was as if God was saying to me after the phone call that day that while I had been Martha all that time, that making the choice to trust Him and let Him have control brought me back to His feet and I became more like Mary.

I would have loved to know what Mary had been dealing with that kept focus so deep on Jesus that day, and I would have loved to know what kept Martha more distracted then just the “preparations.” We know she was a widow, but we are not told how long ago in had happened.

There is a real life story of an artist, “ Joni Eareckson Tada, and she became paralyzed when she dived into the Chesapeake Bay that was shallow. She is only able to paint by the paintbrush in her mouth.

I had been told about her story one night at church through one of my leaders just in conversation, and Sunday morning that leader gave me a magazine to read so I could learn about this person.

I did not open and read the story until today before I wrote this post.

Joni states in her story that she often finds herself depressed and without courage, but to keep herself encouraged she sings hymns through it.

She keeps her focus on Jesus alone.

“ To know that Christ’s grace is available— it won’t take away the pain, but it will give you the courage to face it.”

I want to end this with a point a friend of mine reminded me of as I wrote this,

“ It is not Martha OR Mary, it is Martha AND Mary.”

It is about where we will allow ourselves to place our focus, we can relate to them both.

“ She has chosen which is greater and it will not be taken from her.”

Here is a song that as I began to write this post today that suddenly came on youtube while I waited for Bethel Music to come on. I dig the title 🙂







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