LSOF: Forgiveness

As I closed my eyes to sleep last night, I had a thought go through my heart.
It was as if I was laying on the ocean shore, and a gentle wave washed over me.
My heart was being told in God’s sweet, still small voice…
” You must forgive..”

I’m not one to be all to excited when God pushes me to write on things that go beyond
what I really am feeling at the present moment.
But I can tell you this…

I woke up with the same thought on my heart.
And it was as if the thought lived with me all through the night,
God was making it clear…YOU NEED TO DO THIS.
He wouldn’t let it go.
So I knew I couldn’t.

Now to you, maybe forgiving is an easy thing to do. I’m going to guess though, like me,
it doesn’t come so easy.

It might be easier to “forget” the situation, the “forgive” the circumstances within it all.

Forgetting is not the same as Forgiving.

How many times have you heard someone say to you, ” Oh just forget about it.”
That’s basically just saying to you, ” It’s not that important, get over it.”

But let me tell you something that strongly has been brought to my heart when it comes to forgiving and forgetting…
True forgiveness does not come from just letting that person, ” off the hook”…we may feel it for a certain amount of time, but I can almost promise you somewhere down the line…you are going to remember the situation, and feel that unforgiveness rage inside of you…so much so…
that you not only don’t forgive the situation that happened with that person, but it becomes a domino effect and you end up burning so many bridges…without intention.

So this would be what happens when someone says to you, ” Forgive and forget.”
More than likely, most times, we forget, before we forgive.
Not the way to go.

I don’t think any of us really can get the concept of what it is to forgive.
And I’m writing this, because I didn’t know….until now.
And this knowledge did not come from books.
I searched my own heart.

Forgiveness in my own words is to look beyond the faults of another person,
and beauty beyond it all. Beyond the anger they might have shown you, beyond the pain
they might have caused you, beyond the control they might have put on you, beyond the manipulation,
beyond the inferiority they caused you to feel, beyond anything and anything…
Whatever it was…

You see the person instead. You see them for who they ARE.
You know in their mind they might believe they are right, that they have just caused
to treat you, or say things to you that they do…
but I think I remember very well what Jesus said when He was on the cross
and people thought they had just cause to put Him there…

” Forgive them Father, they know not of what they do.”

Forgive and forgetting is something recommended actually from a health website.

This is straight from the website:
” Many people view forgiveness as an offshoot of love — a gift given freely to those who have hurt you.

Forgiveness, however, may bring enormous benefits to the person who gives that gift, according to recent research. If you can bring yourself to forgive and forget, you are likely to enjoy lower blood pressure, a stronger immune system, and a drop in the stress hormones circulating in your blood, studies suggest. Back pain, stomach problems, and headaches may disappear. And you’ll reduce the anger, bitterness, resentment, depression, and other negative emotions that accompany the failure to forgive. ” – Tom Valeo, via

Time heals pain, this is true. However, at some point (sooner then later), in that time…
we all need to look back on the situation with someone, and tell ourselves that we have to forgive.

I know there are some out there that feel like its too late, that the person has either passed or is no longer apart of your life…but its NOT too late.

It will be HARD, but I believe that our all powerful God can see it bubbling inside of you even now…
He can see your heart saying, ” If only…”
and He is going to tell you to stop regretting the past, stop wondering of how you wished things were different, and just think of that person in that situation you have been in life…
And say, ” I forgive you for…” and maybe you can’t get yourself to say, the ” Forgive you for” part,
if you can’t, its okay to just say, ” _____ , I forgive you.
Leave it at that. God knows your heart, He knows there are words you can’t get yourself to speak.

When we are hurting…we don’t want to forgive.
Plain and simple.
Believe me, I get this—
We need to get out of that frame of mind,
and work on it each day…

And like in my case, because I know that my heart is at stake and everything that I am, and what I truly believe in my character…I choose forgiveness.
I am created to be an example of Jesus, and He forgave.

And maybe like you, those who I want to say, ” I forgive you,” to…I can’t.
They are not apart of my life now…but God knows that I did.
And that’s what matters.

We need to focus on praying for good for others too…and forgiveness
helps us to pray for blessings for their lives.

We need to again realize, forgetting and not forgiving…it leaves an unintentional thorn in your side.
You will REMEMBER, and when you do…you won’t think lovingly of that person.
And its not fair to them or to you.

And all that is planned for all of you.

Forgive and don’t forget; instead- remember by how it’s shaped your life, and who God will raise u up to be through it!

I’ve probably gone on and on about this.

But I want to tell you something.

I have peace since I forgave those in my life who hurt me. They will never know it.
But it doesn’t matter.
My heart is right with God, because it is HE who needs me to forgive.
The others in my life, it wouldn’t matter….and that’s okay.

Forgiveness matters to God.
Because He doesn’t want us to have any stumbling block in the path

And “the boundary lines have fallen for me in pleasant places…”
and it starts by knowing we have no place with God,
if we have no place to forgive.

If you choose life.
Then choose forgiveness too!

(Colossians 3:12-14)
Therefore, as God’s chosen people, holy and dearly loved, clothe yourselves with compassion, kindness, humility, gentleness and patience. 13 Bear with each other and forgive one another if any of you has a grievance against someone. Forgive as the Lord forgave you. 14 And over all these virtues put on love, which binds them all together in perfect unity.

LSOF: Creating our own prisons


In the beginning of Ephesians, we see that Paul is writing his letter while in prison. It is also the book that is known as,
” The Prison Doxology”, and with good reason if you read on through.
My purpose today though, isn’t to share about the letter he was writing, and the lessons that were taught…
while all so vitally important, I think the focus should be that he was writing from a single candle light, if any,
he could hear the screaming of the prisoners from all around him. He may have been without food or water for days…
we don’t know what his conditions were at that time,
our focus shouldn’t be the prison, but how he pushed his mind through to a deeper place,
that he could possible close his eyes and picture his meeting with Jesus on the road.
That even though he was in an unfamiliar place, he still had a very FAMILIAR God close to his side.
And God knew every moment what would happen next in every little breath.
I think Paul knew that being in the prison was just another test of his faith, and the test wasn’t how long he could keep
his sanity, I think it was how long it would it take to remember Jesus each morning he awoke from his situation.

I think we can all very much relate to this.

Have you ever had something happen to you in your life, that truly left scars on the inside?
Something that even though you’ve had years of counseling, and praying to be set free from…you still
remember every now and then?
Perhaps it was a person; a relative, a friend, a boss, or a teacher in your past that perhaps hurt you in some way,
or maybe it was a loss of something or someone…whatever it is, whatever you did or didn’t do, or they did, or didn’t do…
The prison bars are up.

I believe I finally allowed myself to be set free from something recently that has bothered me for almost 15 years or so,
it was something that deep down inside me hurt to even think about at times. It literally has kept me from being close to people that love me. I have always loved people from a distance.

Without sharing that situation I will tell you that in a simple email, I was able to see straight to my face that this was something that had no reason to be holding me back.

I want to say that we can’t allow a few things that happen in our lives to define how the rest of our life will be like,
because in a way, aren’t we trying to play God? Aren’t we throwing ourselves to the darkness?

I have decided that I am going to be more vocal when it comes to helping people find the best of themselves, because concentrating on the things that have been God given gifts…that is what defines us, the beauty we can help God create into the world.

Living here in Savannah, it hasn’t been an easy start.

I almost did the Thanksgiving thing by myself, I planned on my friend going to her dad’s and I would make myself some
chicken fahitas.

I ended up going with my friend Nicole to her dad’s house.

She lost her mom last year, and she was the one telling me to my face today,
” Angie, at least you came to Savannah knowing someone, you could have moved somewhere where you didn’t know anyone,
and you need to just appreciate that.”

It’s the truth, I moved here and the enemy gave my mind a good materialistic view on what I didn’t have here,
my family for example, but I completey didn’t realize the things I did have here.

I hope if you are reading this that you look around you today…and appreciate the little things that are right in front of you.

Be thankful for them. Because YOU HAVE THEM:)