LSOF: ” I Will Rise…”

I appreciate so much of the support and love that y’all have shown me in the last week since I decided it was best to stay quiet from my blog for a month…I never thought there was really more than me writing and reading these posts…you guys blew me away with your response!

So I have been thinking and it has really been pressed on my heart to…WRITE ANYWAY.
And thanks to you all for helping my heart to have perspective.
The whole point I write…has NOTHING to do with me.

I don’t know if you do this or not, but sometimes when I get in my car, I don’t turn on the radio.
I have music with me on my player…but sometimes…
I sing songs without the music.
Sometimes it means more to my own heart, when I am singing the lyrics to the song…
Just for me, and God to hear.

This particular song this morning brought tears to my eyes when I tried to sing it, its absolutely beautiful and its one that just makes me feel like I am riding on eagles wings.
It just sends a rush of peace through my soul…
It’s called,

” I Will Rise,” by Chris Tomlin.

There’s a peace I’ve come to know
Though my heart and flesh may fail
There’s an anchor for my soul
I can say “It is well”

Jesus has overcome
And the grave is overwhelmed
The victory is won
He is risen from the dead

And I will rise when He calls my name
No more sorrow, no more pain
I will rise on eagles’ wings
Before my God fall on my knees
And rise
I will rise

There’s a day that’s drawing near
When this darkness breaks to light
And the shadows disappear
And my faith shall be my eyes

” There’s a peace I’ve come to know, though my heart and flesh may fail…”

I love that line so much…it comes out of the heart of Psalm 73:26

” My flesh and my heart may fail,
but God is the strength of my heart
and my portion forever.”

I have to just share with you that what occured to me today while I was singing that song…
My flesh and my heart WILL fail…but its the HOPE I have that will always bring me back
to the place I need to be.

I know that hope. I know it SO well, that it brings tears to my eyes even thinking about it.

Hope is intertwined with faith and love…it reaches into the deepest part of who we are,
and tells us we are beautiful. It holds our hand in our fears, and let’s us know that light is stronger than darkness. It believes for us, when we don’t believe we have purpose to believe otherwise,
It knows the truth of who we are, when we are unsure of our identity.
It comforts us in our trials, It pushes us to take steps we don’t want to, It takes the tears that fall from our eyes and turn them into a treasure of another’s life. Hope was born into a world that never deserved it.
Yet it chose to overpower our pain…

” I will rise on eagles wings…”

This beautiful line comes out of Isaiah 40:31

But those who hope in the LORD
will renew their strength.
They will soar on wings like eagles;
they will run and not grow weary,
they will walk and not be faint.

I want everyone to know that I’ve decided to change the direction of this blog.
It has ultimately been about “Little Steps Of Faith”…but its on my heart to take it deeper.

I want to help teach HOPE…for now on we will walk blindly with the eyes of faith,
and walk into the arms of HOPE…
It’s about the journey not so much of believing and faith…
but taking that faith we have and pressing our heart into believing MORE when all we know
of the world is that it WILL let us down. It’s KNOWING God, but believing with our hearts…
that we can overcome anything with Him at our side.

I look forward to sharing my heart with you on this journey:)

LSOF: The fight is not ours

I love to look at bible verses that encourage me, and help me to know and remember how powerful our God really is;
not that we could actually fathom that in completeness, but I love to just be blown away by Him at times.

Did you know that in Exodus 14:14(NLT) it actually says,
” The Lord, HIMSELF will FIGHT for YOU, You only need to only stay calm.”

REALLY? Really is that all we have to do is just be calm and let God handle everything going on with us.


The more we actually give God a chance to take ahold of the things going on in our lives, the better our lives will be.
It will be BETTER, because we will be giving ourselves PEACE. We honestly leave our issues, are situations, and our problems with God and say…

” YOU LORD ALONE know how to deal with this. It is your fight, it is not mine. I can overcome this, I can get passed it…
Because You are God and NOTHING is too hard for you! Mountains tremble and fall into the oceans before you. Rulers fall to their face in your presence. The earth is yours and everything in IT. Help all of us Lord to overcome the evil one, Help us all Lord to not be discouraged by our days. You are our shield, our sword, and our REDEEMER. You take our lives from the pit and make them anew. You search us, and you know us. Let your heart be our DIRECTION Father…let us leave our weapons on the ground, and let YOU move ahead of us…”

I know that wars are fought with weapons overseas. But I also know that for every bullet fired, that there is someone on their knees praying. Weapons alone do not destroy, it is our reverence for God. It is us knowing every heartbeat should be in belief that we cannot stand where we are without HIM.

I was sitting in church today, and we were singing the song, ” Everything” – ” Your all that I want, your all that I need, your everything, everything…”

And I felt myself not only sing that song, but feel it from my heart towards heaven. I couldn’t say it loud enough!
He is EVERYTHING. HE is ALL we NEED. We only need to trust Him that He knows better!

I went into the prayer center right after church, my heart was full. I love my time spent with Him.
I passed a man who was on the side of the church smoking. He jumped when he saw me, ” I didn’t know anyone would come by here.” and I just looked at him and said, ” It’s okay.” and walked inside. His look on his face showed “shame”, and it got me thinking more HOW again EVERYTHING is God’s fight. Even our addictions. I mean we ALL have our addictions.

I walked inside and I sat down, and I looked at the portrait of Jesus. And I just started to say, ” Lord, I know I’m trying, and I admit I’m not trying hard enough, but YOU Lord, I know you can help me to do better.”

I also shared with Him about someone in my life struggling right now with a lot, and I finally said,
” I need to leave this with you, because you are the one in this battle for them, not me.”
Because I am sure that’s what the Spirit put in my heart to say.
I know I need to. I can’t make anyone’s life better. It is God alone who can.

The fight is not ours my friends. We can think that we can handle it better…and then that is when we find ourselves on the ground. We become sad. We become deeply depressed. We quit having motivation for anything…
We eventually put a stopper in the flow of the Holy Spirit pouring into our lives.

We may not face physical battles, but I know there are spiritual ones, and mental ones going on inside of all of us,
I don’t care who you are…you are fighting something today too.

Let HIM fight for you. Let HIM take all of it on. HE can handle it.

In Isaiah 40:26 it says that God placed every star in the sky and calls them each by name…every star.
And it is His strength and power alone that keeps them where they are, and from falling…

He WILL do the same for us.

We just have to remember our battle is the Lord’s.

He’ll take it from there.

LSOF: Leaving a Legacy

My dear ffriend now in heaven

We all have a background song for our life, one that describes who we are, and what we are about.
One that speaks our heart, passion for life, and plays in our mind at such a volume we forget the
rest of the world exists.

For my friend Cally, that song was, ” The Greatest Love Of All” By: Whitney Houston.
She used to sing this song often, and when I would ask her to, she would sing it for me.
I actually have it playing on repeat in the background as I write this.
While its brought me to tears several times today; I can now listen and it comforts me.
Every lyric speaks what her hearts cry was.

” I decided long ago never to walk in anyone’s shadows,
if I fail ,if I succeed, at least I lived as I believed,
no matter what they take from me,
they can’t take away my dignity.”

I’ve never experienced a death of a friend that had such impact over my life before.
I was blessed to have Cally in my life.

I think in a lot of ways, she helped me be who I am today.
I owe my quirkiness, and creativity to her, she didn’t let me be afraid,
she always encouraged me to just be me, no matter what anyone thought.
Though she could not do the same for herself.

Cally lived daily trying to love the world, but the world would not
love her the way that she wanted it to.
Cally tried to give to the world, but the world would not
receive what she had to give.

Cally tried to share Jesus with everyone she met,
and encourage them anyway she could…
She’ll never know that she succeeded in doing that.

I had so many people say to me today,
” She was the girl who worked at the gas station. She was so nice.
She was always talking to me. Always so encouraging.
We would take awhile to leave, but we didn’t mind so much,
she was good to talk to.”

Cally worked at a gas station right out of highschool.
She didn’t have huge dreams like some of us do, for her the huge dream
was doing what she could, and being who she was to the world,
the way God wanted her to be.

I heard the other day that maybe our “destination” of our calling,
isn’t somewherelse…maybe it is right here where we are right now,
with whatever we are doing.

Cally was the most inspiring person on this earth, beyond what she felt psychologically.

After I found out Cally passed away, I jumped out of bed, and went upstairs to the attic,
and rummaging through the garage to find this letter I want to share.

I wondered if I should share it, because it was something she wrote for me,
but I decided others should see it, so they can see firsthand the legacy
that Cally left.

” Dear Angie,

Thank you so much for being you, amazing to me, your true.
If anyone should touch me in this manner, or really shock me with their
honesty and loyalty, it will be because of you.
You’ve given me faith that people who think, feel, love, and care, like
you are real.
You have all the qualities anyone could ever desire for a friend,
and then many added bonuses,
You are a talented writer, and never forget that your thoughts
are different can and will inspire something, no one else can
but you.
You are also very good at encouraging, and finding gifts in others.
One of your gifts is being the wind which helps your loved ones fly.
Sometimes I find it hard to believe that someone like you could relate,
and feel like me. I guess its because I look up to you.
I am proud to be your friend and honored to be your best.
Anyone could’ve, anyone would’ve, Thank you!
I am shocked and appauled to believe anyone would, or has treated you badly, and with
little insignificance.
They didn’t and they don’t know what they’re missing.
Angie, remember that, and remember this, you are special in God’s eyes!



A Legacy is left when one chooses to live their life with real meaning, otherwise they are just left
as a memory in the back of someone’s mind.

Let’s not be people that live life for ourselves, and miss out on the people out there in the world,
that need to know they are loved, that need encouragement.

Cally had deep pain, but the love she had for people went deeper.

She has no more suffering. Safe in the arms of Jesus.

Cally’s favorite Bible verse:

Job 32:6-10

“I am young in years,
and you are old;
that is why I was fearful,
not daring to tell you what I know.

I thought, ‘Age should speak;
advanced years should teach wisdom.’

But it is the spirit in a man,
the breath of the Almighty, that gives him understanding.

It is not only the old [c] who are wise,
not only the aged who understand what is right.

“Therefore I say: Listen to me;
I too will tell you what I know.

I believe the children are our are future
Teach them well and let them lead the way
Show them all the beauty they possess inside
Give them a sense of pride to make it easier
Let the children’s laughter remind us how we used to be
Everybody searching for a hero
People need someone to look up to
I never found anyone to fulfill my needs
A lonely place to be
So I learned to depend on me

I decided long ago, never to walk in anyone’s shadows
If I fail, if I succeed
At least I live as I believe
No matter what they take from me
They can’t take away my dignity
Because the greatest love of all
Is happening to me
I found the greatest love of all
Inside of me
The greatest love of all
Is easy to achieve
Learning to love yourself
It is the greatest love of all

I believe the children are our future
Teach them well and let them lead the way
Show them all the beauty they possess inside
Give them a sense of pride to make it easier
Let the children’s laughter remind us how we used to be


And if by chance, that special place
That you’ve been dreaming of
Leads you to a lonely place
Find your strength in lov

LSOF: ” So Long Insecurity,” notes…

I am not even to the point of processing this weekend, but I do want to make sure someonelse gets a good Word like I did,
so for now here are the notes, and when I can I will write about it all:)

Ephesians 4:1- ” I urge you to live a life worthy of the calling you have received.”
(Eph 4:17-24)
” No longer live as gentiles do..”
(Futility of their thinking…)

Eph 4:22-24- “You were taught, with regard to your former way of life, to put off your old self, which is being corrupted by its deceitful desires; to be made new in the attitude of your minds; and to put on the new self, created to be like God in true righteousness and holiness.” (Put off old self)

” Grace isn’t an excuse to be living in old bondage..Grace is an excuse to be completely made new.”

2 Sam, Isaiah 43:18-19

A woman who is secure:

S- Saved from herself

” Human mind is twisted by idolitrist-self interest.”

(Homo Incurratus en se- A human being curved upon oneself.)

” Insecurity makes us curve back on ourselves, like a curling back of a piece of plywood”

Can humility and security exist? Will it lead to pride?

” Security can make us feel enough of ourselves, to not be obsessed with ourselves.”

E- Entitled to truth

The world teaches us to be valuable we have to be sensable, (vs. 22)

C- Clothed with Intention
” A woman dresses on purpose.”

Prov. 31:25

” We cannot wait to get secure before we feel secure.”

U- Upended by Grace

” Grace takes up space in a secure woman.”

Eph 4:32

“Charis”- Grace

Forgive in Greek, means ” To grace” (Charitizomi…(sp.)

2 Cor 5:17

” Grace turns everything upside down.”
” Grace is the only thing you can give away, that you can also keep.”

” Remember what you were taught…”

R- Rebounded by Love(eph 4:1- 5:2)

E- Exceptional in life

” We have a need for significance.”

Romans 8:28

LSOF: Writing our way to faith

Something that has been sort of a realization to me over the last few weeks as I have really spent a lot of time with God, and just writing.
It is through my writing, that God reveals Himself to me.
I am naturally a pretty “hyper” person. I let my life consume me at times. So when I need to be praying to God…I often can’t get myself to really fall to my knees until I have sat down and just wrote through the day I experienced. I have actually found through the hardest years I have had in my life, I’ve gone back and seen that even though those times were horrible, I saw in my journals how I clung to my faith through it. It was really quite a surprise to me.
I think we sometimes regardless of what we go through if we have ever experienced, hope or faith, that it is always with us; We just forget that its there.
God didn’t create this world to just have pain, and suffering, but love and joy. Sometimes though, we forget that love and joy exist, because we let our pain and suffering overpower us.
That is why I write, because I want to remember that those things exist, I want to remember that there is a crazy world out there, but there is peace within me. It humbles me and reminds me that I don’t have to carry the weight of the world on my shoulders alone, and that the daily demands and things that happen in my life…its apart of life, and as sad as that is to know, it helps me to see that being a slight bit different in who I am in my heart, can be a huge difference in the world.
Something just speaks to me as I write, and I know it a lot of times, because tears just start falling. I remind myself that what I feel at that time, its real, its genuine, and that there are so many people out there in the world, that just don’t know how to feel. I think this helps me to remember.
I never want to write anything that doesn’t have purpose. We got enough junk going out into the world as it is. People forget what real meaning is really out there. I mean how many songs are on the radio that really have depth and beauty? Not many.
I guess I am a girl that should have been born in an earlier time of history. I love Carole King, James Taylor, Linda Rondstadt, Fleetwood Mac(specifically Stevie Nicks), and just so many more. I love them, because they had unreachable depth in their music.
One of my favorite Carole King songs starts out, ” You’ve got to get up in the morning with a smile on your face and show the world all the love in your heart.” or James Taylor ” Shower the people you love with love..” Linda Rondstadt, ” Life isn’t easy, love never lasts, you just carry on and keep moving fast..” I love I love Stevie Nicks, and Fleetwood Mac ” Leather and Lace”, ” After the glitter fades”, ” Landslide”, and ” Has anyone ever written anything for you.” and I love modern music artists like, ” Enya, Sarah M, Jewel, Nichole Nordeman, Joss Stone, Nora Jones the most… I guess you can say I best moved by music. It just takes my soul back to the level it should be, and then the writing can begin. When I listen to music I can visualize a story, I can add to the lyrics as I listen to them being played.
Writing is a key to who we are on the inside. I think its where we truly live.
I once visualized a story of a girl who had scrapes and bruises all over her body, and a girl who was just so depressed and saddened by her life sat down next to her. They got talking and realized they connected, because of their pain, the only difference was only one was strong enough to show their pain on the outside. God can teach us through our own writing.
If anything, my desire for people is to try to write a little and see what it does for them. I know most people are against writing how they feel, because there is the pride inside them that tries to tell them, ” You are fine, life is perfect, you have nothing to write about.” but really, that is a lie we tell ourselves to get through the day.
When you are alone, do you really think that?
The truth is, we can’t escape ourselves. We just need to accept that thing happen in our lives, that we will go through fire, but that it doesn’t last forever.

My friend Cady( and I have been through a great deal in our lives, but we both understand the importance of looking deep inside yourself, And we may have different views on faith, but healing also comes from what we learn about ourselves through others. We are all in this together, and God connects us where we are:)
Because of this, I was inspired to start a project called, ” 30 Days Of Faith”- which more details will come later.
So until then, please go take a look at her blog post called,“You and Me”….

Remember the importance to stay true to yourself in even what you write.

It isn’t always easy to pick up a pen to paper, but take it one day at a time, and eventually words will flow on the paper. Just remember to be real with yourself when you write, don’t hide how you are feeling.
And if you find this to hard…think this way:
Writing is a way we get that prayer to God, that we just can’t get ourselves to speak.

LSOF: The Perplexity of Perspective


Hello my dear friend. Whoever you are out there in blogland:) Happy 2010 to you:)

I wonder if you’ve made your ” New Year’s Resolution” as of yet.

If you haven’t, if there are just somethings that you can’t get yourself to give up from a materialistic point of view,
but perhaps you do have something to give up that might be a little easier…

The way you have lived your life to 2010; the perspective you have had on your life, as well as yourself.

What do you think of how your life is right now, and how do you think of yourself?

Well, as you ponder those questions, I felt I would share a little bit about something God spoke to my heart today.

The message at church was , ” Baby steps, to Big Steps”, and I can tell you it was probably the most profound message I’ve heard in a long time.

It was a message for me.

If you are here for the first time to Little Steps Of Faith, I want to tell you that the name of the blog is how I’ve gone through my life, and my faith in God. One step at a time, one day at a time.
But the message God gave to my heart this morning was,
” I need you to stop being so careful with those little steps of yours, I need you to take more risks in trusting me, I need you to take bigger steps now.”

Why this spoke to me so much is, because I have been fighting with my old life in FL, and my new life in Savannah, GA.
I am fighting with myself, and I think I am just going to say that with a huge PERIOD.

There isn’t one part of my life there that I wasn’t fighting with myself to remain the same here. I had to understand that God moved me here so things would be different for me, so I would get out of the comfort zone.
I wasn’t growing where I was. I may have had a lot of people around that loved me, and I do miss them, but for whatever reason God brought me to Savannah not to just ” move me”, but to do bigger things in my life, and around me.

I started going to a church here, that has the same number of people my church in FL started with 12 years ago, and that is just one example, I feel like so much that God is showing me visions in front of my face of my past in so many situations and people.

I keep hearing myself say, ” I have been there…I remember that…This is just like that…”

So I am going to ask the question one more time now;
What do you think of your life now, and what do you think of yourself?

I’ll answer on my side here.

I think my life now could be described with ” possibilities” and the same verse that stalked me from my home in FL, to a Deeper Still conference, and to the ending verse at church I attend now.

” Now to him who is able to do immeasurably more than all we ask or imagine, according to his power that is at work within us, to him be glory in the church and in Christ Jesus throughout all generations, for ever and ever! Amen.”

God can do more than we could ever ask or imagine, my life is a testimony to that. I never planned on leaving FL, and I never planned on living here in Savannah and having the things happened the way they have, the good and the bad.
But I do know this; I’d rather have God handle every part of my life then ever think I could plan it for myself.
We have the power to destroy ourselves, before God can ever use us. I have done enough destroying of myself.

I may not be great at a lot of things, but I have the capability to do what I can. Its about effort in this world,
and you can’t pay attention to who thinks what about you or your life…its not about them.

We have a amazing God up there in heaven who loves us, and is there for us at every moment of our lives.

So this year, I want you to focus on the two questions I asked a few times before…and ask them to yourself everyday.
And add God into the mix of it. God knows we are not perfect, the Word says, ” When perfection comes the imperfect disappears.” SO right there is telling us that imperfection is just something we have to face, we can’t fight it, but we can do what is possible to do things a little differently then we’ve always done them just by changing the perspective.

It’s not easy to get yourself out of the rut you’ve been in right away, it takes time.
But we all have amazing things to offer to this world, whether it be doing something for someone, or
saying something to someone.

I encourage you if you don’t blog yet, to start a blog. It will change your life.
Because what happens is you see who you are showing the world you are on your blog.
People will know your heart, because it is right there in front of them on the screen.

I have no problem telling you that I struggle everyday to stay positive and happy, because in reality things are not that way, we have daily demands and all kinds of things to deal with everyday, it takes work to keep yourself happy, and so that’s a great reason to spend time with God, and get to know who you are in His eyes. Let Him speak to your heart and tell you that you’re special. That you have something to give to this world. We all have something. We were created because we have something to give out into the world

We have love. We carry that within us. We carry it and sometimes forget it. But its the greatest gift, and the most
worth giving.

So this year, don’t focus on anything more than to ” Just believe” that you are someone who is valuable to God, and to others. Of course there will be people out there who try to say otherwise, but they just don’t know how much they need people who have the desire in them to love, to be givers.

They will come around. Change how you see those people.

At the end of the day, and at the end of it all…

Who you were to the world in your heart will be the only thing that matters anyway.


LSOF: Seasons Change but SHARING OUR HEARTS should not be saved for Christmas alone

I walked down the river walk earlier this week.

First I came across a gentleman that asked if I wanted him to play me a song…I told him I’m sorry but I don’t have any money,
the man smiled and said, ” Okay, then.” and walked away.

The second man I walked by asked me if I wanted him to sing me a gospel song…I told him I am sorry, but I don’t have any money. The man smiled and walked away saying, ” Okay, God bless you anyway.”

Finally as I got down to the end of the riverwalk I stopped to read a tribute statue about slaves. As I walked away a man was standing by and asked if I wanted a palm frans that he had made into a rose.
And as I began to tell him I didn’t have any money…

He said to me, ” It’s not about that.”

I think that gentlemans words really spoke volumes to me, and it should to all of us.

Savannah has a lot of poor areas, and that man could have very well been giving me something he would usually charge someone to possibly put food on the table for his children.

Out of his own dear heart, he gave what he had, to bless me.

It’s about perspective.

That’s all I wanted to say for now. I’ll leave you with one of my favorite songs.