LSOF: Material Worth

I had an amazing weekend. The entire series of events:)
I got to spend sometime with some wonderful people that I might not ever have met,
if not for blogging. 🙂

Beth Moore held a simulcast called, ” So Long Insecurity”, and me and 9,000 others all attended the host site in Atlanta, GA.
It was beautifully insane:)

Friday night I got to meet my siestas(sisters in Christ that read LPM blog)- some I’ve known for years, and finally met face to face, and it did my heart some good:)

Saturday- We all volunteered at the conference in someway. Brittany and I were in charge of greeting all 9,000 people,
I do believe we did greet every single one of them:) and then we passed on programs to as many as we could.
After that, our job was over. Others worked the food tables, and Lifeway resources.
It was like being in school again, working alongside everyone on your team…so cool.

Saturday night- we had the meet up. It was a lot of fun. 30 of us where there and just sang some praise and worship,
led by Stephanie(Ocean Mommy), and a poem by Lora, then Lisa Mckay(the preacher’s wife) shared a devotional.
I would be lying if I said there weren’t tears. I had my mascara probably in a clump on my cheeks. It was a good night.

I then drove to Nashville to see my friend Pam Case and her church at Grace Uprising. It was some sweet time. Love those people, they seriously rock. Pam is so kind and just a Jesus-lovin’ gal all the way:)
We then did lunch, and I drove back to Atlanta where I stayed with my aunt one more night…
and now I am back in Savannah.

But on the way home, after this powerhouse of a weekend. I remember calling my friend Janice. I mentioned to her how I hadn’t seen my Ipod touch. She told me I should pull over before I go any further. It was a nice thought, but I was already 2hrs away from Atlanta. So I just waited until I returned home.

I have not been able to find it. I just remember having it at the conference, after that. I don’t know.

It’s hard to say when we lose things that we are perfectly okay about it. I mean that particular thing was over $150, and
its a hard thing to just say “good-bye” too. But I am. I just am focusing on a few verses in Matthew that are getting me through, which I will share in a moment.

Earlier today, I went to a grocery store to use a giftcard a family member had sent me. Somehow, this card wasn’t properly
loaded, so the money did not show up. AFTER I had come to the cash register to check-out.
$100 giftcard…and I was told that didnt’ exist. So waiting to talk to people tomorrow about it.

But the word that really kept coming to my mind all weekend through a series of things.
” Material Worth…”

I mean last I checked God doesn’t have an “ipod touch” located anywhere in the Bible. We all know there wasn’t an ” app” for everything back then:) and I don’t think that God would have had giftcards either.

Yes, I am half being silly here.

But to add to the ” material worth” what about status? I couldn’t believe how some people reacted to other
bloggers that they thought were ” well-known”…seriously, if those people had a clue…

Or what about ” attention”- Should we really worry about ” who did what”- but maybe focus on what
they did…

I think if the politics could be taken out of this weekend…that God would have shined through even more…
it was an amazing weekend itself…but ya know there are always the little things.

I have just decided for myself, that ” planning” is not my thing. My gift isn’t found there. I can be quite disorganized, and
frustrated and I’m not ashamed to admit that.

It was a lot of the reason I didn’t have a place to serve in the church until I came to Savannah.
I couldn’t stand the politics of ” that should look this way, or that should look that way.”

To me, it took away from the worship experience.

I love doing what I do now. Tech is so much fun, and I can worship and do that at the same time:)

I don’t want to live in a place where moths and thieves destrory, I don’t want to concentrate on
what the earth can give me…if I do that, then what example am I setting of a woman who loves Jesus?

” Where your treasure is there your heart will be also.”

I dont’ want my heart to be found in an ” ipod touch” or a giftcard I receive…or whatever…I want it to be found
in Jesus. I want my treasure to be His heart.

We are living in a material world…but I’m not a material girl.

Philosophical Thoughts

I am in Philosophy class, and I thought I would share the discussion question, and my response. Perhaps you could think how you would answer it as well…and comment if you like:)

Chapter 2 continued.

Discussion: Are you the same person that you were 5, 10, 20 years ago. If not, and everyone becomes a new person over time/circumstances, how do we (should we) maintain continuity of self-identity/personal responsibility over time? (eg;Why shouldn’t a convicted criminal be able to claim that they are a ‘different person’ than when they committed the crime?) If we ARE the same person over time, then isn’t the opposite true ? How/why should we ever be forgiven–or forgive ourselves–for past transgressions?

– I believe that I am not exactly the same person I was 5, 10, 20 years ago. I believe that perhaps there are some parts of me that have remained the same, such as passion towards things I love in life: writing, reading, sharing my heart with others, and showing others value in who they are;

I think that there are things about me that have changed as well through as you said, in a way, rites of passage. 20 yrs ago I was 8 yrs old, I had seen family issues arise heavily, and my mothers illness affected me greatly. It was hard to concentrate in school, and be social.

10 years ago- I was 18, I was the average teenager, with emotional issues, which I could only find as an outlet in my writing…I started to attend church again, and then my life started to take a turn for the better; I learned a positive perspective in years of chaos.

5 years ago- I was 23, and from that point to now, what has changed is the growth in myself; though I have been through a great deal of hardship in my life, at 23 I wasn’t ready to accept the past as I do now. I think somewhere around 25 we are forced to confront our past.

I accept and do not regret the past at all, it was what it was, and today is what it is.

I think to maintain and personal identity for ourselves is to keep focused on the things that are important in our lives, the things that help us get up in the morning.

I once wrote 25 things on a piece of paper I wanted to accomplish, and then I told myself, to just attempt to accomplish one, would be more than not trying to accomplish any of it at all…and that is how I have lived my life since, you do what you can, with what you have, when you can, regardless of what others think; living by your heart, and keeping your head up; will keep you away from the negative thoughts of this world.

I believe when it comes to a convicted criminal, if they say they have changed, I would say that it is possible. Being confined and being forced to face yourself is much harder to deal with then the actual crime committed, I would think.

I always think in the people who have done wrong to me in life; they have their own set of issues that they aren’t dealing with, and the more they do wrong to others and avoid looking at their own mistakes the worse it will be when they finally look in the mirror.

The final question about forgiving ourselves. Forgiveness is letting something go, either about ourselves or others in order to lead a healthy life and not hold a grudge about what we didn’t do, or should have done, or should have said.

” Life is not a promise, but a chance.” – Rachel Scott

We have to live life knowing that it will come to an end someday, and we need to be people that after leaving the earth others that are still here can remember us, and appreciate us for taking life on, in every circumstance.

Those who were our enemies, if we treated them fairly even after they had done something, or we had done something to someone, and just let it brush off our shoulders that it is best to move on…then that is exactly what mindset we will have.

But nothing happens overnight.