” I’m Already There…”

There is this song by Lonestar, ” I’m Already There…” and it is about a man calling his family while he is away. He is sad he could not be there with them, but to comfort himself and his family he just answers:

I’m already there
Take a look around
I’m the sunshine in your hair
I’m the shadow on the ground

I’m the whisper in the wind
I’m your imaginary friend
And I know, I’m in your prayers
Oh I’m already there

Music touches my heart so deeply when it comes to my faith, because I read lyrics not in the sense of what the song is trying to convey but what I believe God is speaking to me through it. It doesn’t have to be a Christian song at all, God speaks through everything.

I brought this particular song up, because there is a verse that has been on my heart for the past few weeks. It is interesting, because this particular verse that is found out of Deuteronomy was a concept I saw inside the verse last year. God speaks through what He knows we already know.

Before I go into this verse in Deuteronomy 31:8, I want to share a bit about the beginning of Deuteronomy 31, and give an idea as to what is happening.

Picture Moses, Joshua, and the Isrealites standing on the edge of the river. Moses is 120 years old. He has done what God had asked of him, and God was ready to raise up a leader in Joshua.
Moses knew that the people would be hesitant to leave him, but also knew he needed to prepare the people that his journey with them had come to an end.

“I am now a hundred and twenty years old and I am no longer able to lead you. The LORD has said to me, ‘You shall not cross the Jordan.’ The LORD your God himself will cross over ahead of you. He will destroy these nations before you, and you will take possession of their land. Joshua also will cross over ahead of you, as the LORD said.” (Deuteronomy 31:2-3)

I think what might be being said here is that the people would not be able to face the nations before them until an appointed time. God had to cross over first, and then he would have Joshua follow Him.

I love how it did not go like this, ” Joshua will go ahead of you, and we hope he finds God there.”

Just as Moses was preparing the Isrealites for his departure with them, I would suggest that knowing Joshua no longer had Moses for a leader, that he was handed the staff and in Moses eyes it could have been said, ” Your Lord God will cross over before YOU.” He might have wanted Joshua to know that he would not be leading the people alone or blindly. He might have said that to first and foremost comfort Joshua.

The LORD will deliver them to you, and you must do to them all that I have commanded you. Be strong and courageous. Do not be afraid or terrified because of them, for the LORD your God goes with you; he will never leave you nor forsake you.” (Deuteronomy 31: 5-6)

Moses shares that the nations would be delivered to them, which is exactly why God told them to stay put and wait. God would know exactly what the best plan would be for the people. He tells them there is no reason to be afraid. God already knows the outcome.

“Be strong and courageous, for you must go with this people into the land that the LORD swore to their ancestors to give them, and you must divide it among them as their inheritance. 8 The LORD himself goes before you and will be with you; he will never leave you nor forsake you. Do not be afraid; do not be discouraged.” (Deuteronomy 31:7-8)

There is a pattern we can see in Deuteronomy 31 that I have not seen with other scripture. Moses tells the people: ” The Lord God will crossover before you,” ” The Lord goes with you,” ” The Lord himself, goes before you, and will be with you.”

I love how God never once says he is going ahead of them without saying that He will also be with them.

I think too often we forget that God knows the plans He has for us, but that He does not leave us to take them on alone. He is there with us through the journey.

I know as someone who is preparing to be led a different direction in my life, one that means it is a journey He leads, but that I follow; that there will be people following my footsteps too.

As many times as I’ve seen this verse the last few weeks in Deuteronomy 31:8, I can’t help but hear God saying loudly to my heart, ” I got this, I have your back, if you get discouraged…I may be ahead of you, but I’m still right here.”

We are not meant to go through this life alone, regardless of how much knowledge we think we have on accomplishing something, and regardless what position we have, we need to know we have support, we need to know God is there, and that He will place people in our lives that help to mold us into what He needs us to become for His namesake.

God is going to ask us to lead. It might mean we are going to have to put something down. It might mean the things we have to let go of might be people in our life. It might mean we have to change who we are so much that it takes a toll on us. It might mean that we might have to lose our lives completely for the cost of following Christ.

Whatever it means for us. He already knows, He was already there.

We are standing in his footprint.

LSOF: To see deeper…

“Take a good look, friends, at who you were when you got called into this life. I don’t see many of “the brightest and the best” among you, not many influential, not many from high-society families. Isn’t it obvious that God deliberately chose men and women that the culture overlooks and exploits and abuses, chose these “nobodies” to expose the hollow pretensions of the “somebodies”? That makes it quite clear that none of you can get by with blowing your own horn before God. Everything that we have—right thinking and right living, a clean slate and a fresh start—comes from God by way of Jesus Christ. That’s why we have the saying, “If you’re going to blow a horn, blow a trumpet for God.”
(1 Corinthians 1:26)THE MESSAGE

I was thinking about something last night. I am going to be 29 years old in November, but I don’t think my age has much to do with my life direction.
I think it has everything to do with the pull of God.

I mean I am not someone who has the highest degree, or that is really all that influential to others; but yet God is using me.

I sometimes read through posts, or poems that I write and read them more than once, trying to get the sense that those words came out of me…but from some unknown source.

So the verse above explains me so very well. I was a nobody, who God saw at a very young age had the ” desire” to go after the deeper things this life has to offer.
To see deeper.

When I look at a tree, I don’t just see a tree; I see the etchings of what has happened to the tree overtime, I see the direction of the branches, the way the trunk of the tree leans towards, and picture the wind that made it fall to such a way. I see the birds visit the branches, and how high they choose to stand from. I see the weak parts of the tree to the strongest, I see the leaves that are dying, and the ones that just begin. And even though I cannot see the roots under the ground, I picture how they might tangle through the earth.

I see people often in a similar way. I see their eyes, and I wonder of the story of their life, I wonder what I would find had I opened up their mind and took a peek on the inside.
I wonder of their heart; I wonder of all the things they have seen in life, and pain and the joys. I wonder of their feet, I wonder what life the shoes they walk in have taken them, I wonder every step. Their voice, I wonder if it has gotten deeper overtime, and at what point. Their face expressions, I wonder what makes them smile, and what makes them frown, and I wonder if the day had already brought them to either place.
I wonder of their past, I wonder of the influences in their life, I wonder of the morals and values instilled in them, and I wonder if they carry peace in their back pocket.
I wonder of how often they’ve been sick, and how humble they are to others if I had never spoken to them face to face. I wonder what value love, grace, and mercy have to their lives, I wonder if they love God, or if they have their own way of living their lives, unsure.
I wonder if who they are and what they are about has completely been influenced by their surroundings, or if perhaps it has come natural to them. I wonder of the words spoken to them by those they love, and what kinds of things they were told. I wonder what cloud formations they have seen in the sky, the the constellation of stars their eyes have gazed upon. I wonder if they have journeyed to a place I have never been, and I wonder of the things they have seen. I wonder of their education, and passions in life…
I do my best to see them…the way they really should be seen.

So thinking about God for a moment, knowing He knows all those answers to the things I wonder…I wonder what truly brings emotion to His face. I wonder if He truly has planned out everything that we do in life. I wonder if He might leave room to truly see how we will handle a situation or circumstance.

Yes, He knows the plans He has for us…but what about the middle, is their something He is waiting to see what we will do with it?

Something to think about:)
Sorry my thoughts are quite deep this morning:)


Philosophical Thoughts

I am in Philosophy class, and I thought I would share the discussion question, and my response. Perhaps you could think how you would answer it as well…and comment if you like:)

Chapter 2 continued.

Discussion: Are you the same person that you were 5, 10, 20 years ago. If not, and everyone becomes a new person over time/circumstances, how do we (should we) maintain continuity of self-identity/personal responsibility over time? (eg;Why shouldn’t a convicted criminal be able to claim that they are a ‘different person’ than when they committed the crime?) If we ARE the same person over time, then isn’t the opposite true ? How/why should we ever be forgiven–or forgive ourselves–for past transgressions?

– I believe that I am not exactly the same person I was 5, 10, 20 years ago. I believe that perhaps there are some parts of me that have remained the same, such as passion towards things I love in life: writing, reading, sharing my heart with others, and showing others value in who they are;

I think that there are things about me that have changed as well through as you said, in a way, rites of passage. 20 yrs ago I was 8 yrs old, I had seen family issues arise heavily, and my mothers illness affected me greatly. It was hard to concentrate in school, and be social.

10 years ago- I was 18, I was the average teenager, with emotional issues, which I could only find as an outlet in my writing…I started to attend church again, and then my life started to take a turn for the better; I learned a positive perspective in years of chaos.

5 years ago- I was 23, and from that point to now, what has changed is the growth in myself; though I have been through a great deal of hardship in my life, at 23 I wasn’t ready to accept the past as I do now. I think somewhere around 25 we are forced to confront our past.

I accept and do not regret the past at all, it was what it was, and today is what it is.

I think to maintain and personal identity for ourselves is to keep focused on the things that are important in our lives, the things that help us get up in the morning.

I once wrote 25 things on a piece of paper I wanted to accomplish, and then I told myself, to just attempt to accomplish one, would be more than not trying to accomplish any of it at all…and that is how I have lived my life since, you do what you can, with what you have, when you can, regardless of what others think; living by your heart, and keeping your head up; will keep you away from the negative thoughts of this world.

I believe when it comes to a convicted criminal, if they say they have changed, I would say that it is possible. Being confined and being forced to face yourself is much harder to deal with then the actual crime committed, I would think.

I always think in the people who have done wrong to me in life; they have their own set of issues that they aren’t dealing with, and the more they do wrong to others and avoid looking at their own mistakes the worse it will be when they finally look in the mirror.

The final question about forgiving ourselves. Forgiveness is letting something go, either about ourselves or others in order to lead a healthy life and not hold a grudge about what we didn’t do, or should have done, or should have said.

” Life is not a promise, but a chance.” – Rachel Scott

We have to live life knowing that it will come to an end someday, and we need to be people that after leaving the earth others that are still here can remember us, and appreciate us for taking life on, in every circumstance.

Those who were our enemies, if we treated them fairly even after they had done something, or we had done something to someone, and just let it brush off our shoulders that it is best to move on…then that is exactly what mindset we will have.

But nothing happens overnight.

Poem: The withered tree

I sit under the withered oak tree.
And I wonder if perhaps,
We have something in common.

Its leaves are colorless
From the sun beating down
Each day.

Its branches crack when the wind blows,
And everytime, a layer of it,
Seems to fly into the wind.

I can tell its aged, that its been through a lot.

But though the tree seems to be withered,
Seems to have lost hope,
I wonder if perhaps,
It is holding its own,
With strength
From way under the ground.

The roots flow with nourishment,
Because perhaps this tree,
Wasn’t expected to live so long.

It beat the odds, and when the forest
Around it was torn away,
It was left standing.

I stand up, and walk a couple steps backwards,
To get the full view of the tree.

Face to face, one life to another.

I wonder if it can see me,
I wonder if perhaps,
It has thoughts of how I look.
What I’ve been through.

The tree and I are quite similar
In story,
Only difference,
Its shows its scars from life on the outside.

While mine are found from within.

By: angie sarich