LSOF: When Jesus became EVERYTHING.

I had praying one night a few months back and God brought to my heart a familiar verse, “ Love the Lord your God with all your heart, all your soul, all your mind and all your strength.” And I remember trying to figure out the depth of that scripture. So what I made the mistake of doing was the “ Thinker,” that I am analyzed it piece by piece. “ Where was I not loving God?” but I soon learned loving God the way I’ve come to know is not the whole of it. I could love him with my heart, but would not mean I would never desire something in the world and fail at this, I could love him with all my soul, and then my emotions can play games and I might not always “feel,” like loving Him, I may love Him with my mind, but my mind is a battlefield and is distracted easily by other things, and I may love Him with all my strength, but I get weary without a good amount of coffee, so I know that I would never be perfect at that either.

God showed me it was never about the ways I loved Him, it was what I believed about Him, that I would love Him for who He is.  I could never be content just realizing what He has done. I had to recognize that I love Him when I realize He is all that matters.

Anyone can love someone for what they’ve done. We hear news stories about heroism daily, but how many will sit down and listen to stories that do not pertain to bravery and courage? How many would sit down to just know and love the person for who they are?

I learned that I truly love Him when I recognize He is everything and more. When we truly want to know who He is.

He is more than my job and its stresses, He is more than the people I care about in my life and how I stretch myself thin at times to be there, He is more than what I find I am best at, and where I struggle to become better…

If I love Him when I say He means everything then that says I love Him by what I have seen Him do, but if I say I love him because He is everything then that means I love Him for who He is.

People who get into relationships with people by what they can “ give,” them, will find those relationships do not last. To have something last you have to want to really know someone, appreciate who they are, their personality, their likes and dislikes, and accept them for who they are and there is balance of “give” and “ receive.”

If we are not also giving God our time to worship Him, If we are not in the Word, if we are not in church “breaking bread,” with others and giving of our time, then we will only be those who are on our knees praying to God to give us things, and answer our prayers and we do this selfishly, because we don’t want to give back to Him. And we are all selfish in one way or another in this area, if not right now, we have been in the past.

We are not loving God when we only ask for what He can do for us; We fail to love Him just because.

It makes me think of the rich young ruler from Luke 18:19-

This rich young ruler walked up to Jesus one day. Perhaps we can imagine him with a long robe, and gold chains hanging from his neck, he might have been carrying gold in his pockets, and he might have even had a servant with him carrying food.
“ Good teacher, what must I do to inherit eternal life?” I have to wonder in asking this question if he might have thought he could, “ buy,” it.  I can imagine Jesus turning around and looking at this man,  “Why do you call me good?” “No one is good except God alone.” He goes on to share, “ You know the commandments: “ Do not commit adultery, do not murder, do not steal, do not give false testimony, honor your father and mother.”

I picture the rich young ruler putting his hand over his heart, “ All this I have kept since I was a young boy.”

And then Jesus tests him…

Jesus says to him, “ You still lack one thing. Sell everything you have and give to the poor and you will have treasures in heaven. Then come follow me.”

Essentially here I believe Jesus was really saying without saying, “ You want to learn how to love me, because you are asking how to have eternal life, and only through me will you have it my friend, and to do this, I ask you to leave everything to follow me, if you do that, then following me above all else, means you love me.”

The rich young rulers face might have changed to discouragement, and he might have hung his head in shame, because being rich was his identity, it’s the only identity he chose to have. It meant more to him then earning eternal life.

I can see Jesus look at his reaction and say, “ How hard is it for the rich to enter the kingdom of God, Indeed, it is easier for a camel to go through the eye of a needle than for a rich man to enter the kingdom of God.”

Or He could have also added, “ You rather love what you have then who I am.”

We too can find at times in our lives we could relate to this rich young ruler.

Obedience is not easy folks, because it takes humility. But we show our love for God in our obedience.

Jesus endured it being whipped 39 times, he endured it carrying a cross for miles, He endured it while hanging by nails. So if something is asked of us, we do not have much room to ignore it, because to carry our cross means we give everything we have an empty ourselves of who we are for a greater cause.

We lay down our lives.

Jesus did it out of love. We must learn to love Him in that way too.

So who could teach our dear rich young ruler how to respond to give up all he owned to follow Jesus?

I have to wonder how Peter observed this encounter with Jesus. I have to wonder what was going through his mind when he watched the excitement the rich young ruler had and then change to full despair and walk away.

Peter could have shared with him the story of how he left everything he owned to follow Jesus, He could have shared with him about how with Jesus there would always be enough like the feeding of the five thousand, he could have shared with him about risking his life to get out of the boat just to meet Jesus on the water, and he could have shared with him that Jesus knew what He was talking about. I wonder if that day if anyone did talk to the rich young ruler, or if he went home and closed the door alone.

Peter loved Jesus. He knew Jesus because He walked with Him, He saw face expresssions, he learned Jesus personality, he saw his reactions, he got to know how Jesus would respond to things. He loved Jesus because He learned who He was.

Lord may that be us.

“All of you is more than enough for all of me, For every thirst and every need, you satisfy me with your love, and all I have in you is more than enough.”  – Chris Tomlin, “ Enough.”





LSOF: Homeward Bound

We last ended with Peter’s miraculous escape from prison. To give a brief synopsis, Peter was was forced into prison in awaiting trial by King Herod, He was bound in chains…and God intervened and helped him to escape. Once Peter was out of the prison standing alone on the street he came to his senses that he was no longer bound.

When this had dawned on him, he went to the house of Mary the mother of John, also called Mark, where many people had gathered and were praying. (Acts 12:12)

I love this part of this next scripture, because it starts with, “When THIS had dawned on him.”

WHAT was it that dawned on him?…He realized he was FREE. And what does scripture say he did after the realization…He went to tell people about it.

And they overcame and conquered him because of the blood of the Lamb and because of the word of their testimony, for they did not love their life and renounce their faith even when faced with death. (Revelation 12:11)

What if Peter did not go back home and tell what the Lord had done for him? What if after he was standing there in the street that he went into hiding? What if he went and lived a life away from all he loved because he was afraid to be captured again?

We sometimes live like this, and we know people who live like this.

This is what it is to not believe that we have been set free.

 “If the Son sets you free then you are free indeed.” (John 8:36)

I believe it is safe to say that most of us grow up with the “spiritual” mentality that we will always “struggle,” with this or that sin.  But what if I told you that what scripture says “free indeed,” means that we are free of all sins? Do you think that is true?

One of my favorite scriptures is,

Ecclesiastes 3:11, “ He makes ALL THINGS beautiful in its time.”

We have to get in the mindset that we are “FREE,” is ALL THINGS, because Jesus died on the cross so that we would be. But once we are free, then we learn how to stop doing things in the same way that put us in that place of bondage before. And we have to be gentle on ourselves and know He began a good work, and it is HE that will finish it!

While the picture is in drawing, and the house in building, we see not the beauty of either; but when the artist has put his last hand to them, and given them their finishing strokes, then all appears very good

(Matthew Henry Commentary on Ecclesiastes 3:11)

It could be that Peter might have been a little afraid of being captured again, I mean he was human, but he also knew that he could find accountability back at Mary’s house, regardless of the state he was in.

And what do we know about what was happening before he knocked on the door…his friends were praying for him.

We need our friends, we need people that our there for us, that open our homes to us, that are there to lean on when we need it, and we need the truth spoken to us in love.

13 Peter knocked at the outer entrance, and a servant named Rhoda came to answer the door. 14 When she recognized Peter’s voice, she was so overjoyed she ran back without opening it and exclaimed, “Peter is at the door!” (Acts 12:13-14)

I love this, because the servant was the one to come to the door, and she did not open the door.  Because again it paints a picture to how we react when someone we know comes, “ clean,” so to speak. We are excited to see them, but we don’t open the door right away.

 “You’re out of your mind,” they told her. When she kept insisting that it was so, they said, “It must be his angel. ”But Peter kept on knocking, and when they opened the door and saw him, they were astonished.  Peter motioned with his hand for them to be quiet and described how the Lord had brought him out of prison. “Tell James and the other brothers and sisters about this,” he said, and then he left for another place. (Acts 12:16-17)

I also love how he kept knocking too.  People that who are set free to know they are free they have something, “ different,” about them.  One thing is they do not carry “shame, or guilt,” they do not “ hide or avoid others.” If they are truly free they will be knocking down the doors of the church to share what God has done or in this day tweeting or posting on Facebook.

Peter knew that there was a greater purpose in him being set free, and it so moved him that he left what was familiar to begin to preach what God had done from place to place.

We have a responsibility to be an example to this world around us.  Where there is favor like Peter being freed from prison there is always also opposition.

 “ God will open doors which no man can shut.” And He will do it.

Life can get very real. Crazy things can happen around us, but we are the only ones that can hold ourselves back. Live like your free, because you are.


















LSOF: No Longer Bound

There are times when the Lord will have us face something in order to have it become a message that can be used to bring freedom for others, and really that could be said for each biblical character, this message hits close to my heart personally, and now I wanted to share.


A stronghold is…

  • Developed from lies we tell ourselves, or have been spoken to us.
  • Those things that hinder our ability to see reality.
  • Something that keeps us from seeing people as we should.
  • Something that keeps others from seeing us as they should, because we only show them what we want them to see….
  • Will often keep us from moving forward in the plans God has for us, also referred to as a “hurt or hang-up.”


I want to bring us back to the time that Peter was thrown into prison by King Herod which we can read out of

Acts 12:6-11.

The night before Herod was to bring him to trial, Peter was sleeping between two soldiers, bound with two chains, and sentries stood guard at the entrance. Suddenly an angel of the Lord appeared and a light shone in the cell. He struck Peter on the side and woke him up. “Quick, get up!” he said, and the chains fell off Peter’s wrists.

Then the angel said to him, “Put on your clothes and sandals.” And Peter did so. “Wrap your cloak around you and follow me,” the angel told him. Peter followed him out of the prison, but he had no idea that what the angel was doing was really happening; he thought he was seeing a vision. 10 They passed the first and second guards and came to the iron gate leading to the city. It opened for them by itself, and they went through it. When they had walked the length of one street, suddenly the angel left him.

11 Then Peter came to himself and said, “Now I know without a doubt that the Lord has sent his angel and rescued me from Herod’s clutches and from everything the Jewish people were hoping would happen.”


It was the night before he would be on trial.

He was bound by two chains and between two guards, and there were more guards outside his prison cell. He had no means of escape.

We find Peter even in those chains…sleeping.

It is interesting to me how even though Peter was bound in chains, and there were guards surrounding him that could easily harm him, that he was able to REST.


We all are or have been bound by something in our life at some point, but how often have we just learned to “live” with them then allow ourselves to be set free from them?

How many of us find ourselves “resting” and finding “comfort” in those things that bind us?

Most times then not, we make ourselves accept the chains then figure out means of escape.


In Peters case though, in this literal sense, I believe the Lord allowed him to rest because he had gone through quite an ordeal. The difference was though his rest was in the Lord alone and not because he was up all night trying to figure out how to overcome it all.

“Be STILL and KNOW I am GOD,” (Psalm 46:10)

“ The Lord HIMSELF will fight for you, You need ONLY TO BE STILL.” (Exodus 14:14)

“He who watches over you WILL NOT slumber; indeed, he who watches over Israel will neither slumber nor sleep.
The Lord watches over you—- The Lord is your shade at your right hand; the sun WILL NOT harm you by day, nor the moon by night. The Lord will keep you from all harm— He will watch over your life; the Lord will watch over your coming and going both now and forevermore.” (Psalm 121: 3-8)



In the middle of the night an Angel of the Lord came into the prison and struck Peter and his chains fell to the ground.


Before the angel of the Lord came into the prison let’s focus on the fact that Peter was in chains, He was bound to being between both those soldiers, and then when the Angel of the Lord came in he was struck and his chains fell to the ground. He was set free from his bondage right then and there.


This particular part of the story reminded me of Jacob wrestling with God and how when he was struck that he was then called a different name. He was no longer bound to the name he went by as “heel-grabber, or deceiver” after that moment. This story coorelates as to the fact that Jacob might not have had literal chains like Peter, but was bound by his old life until the Lord came in and struck him and made him walk “differently.”

24 So Jacob was left alone, and a man wrestled with him till daybreak. 25 When the man saw that he could not overpower him, he touched the socket of Jacob’s hip so that his hip was wrenched as he wrestled with the man. 26 Then the man said, “Let me go, for it is daybreak.”
But Jacob replied, “I will not let you go unless you bless me.”
27 The man asked him, “What is your name?”
“Jacob,” he answered.
28 Then the man said, “Your name will no longer be Jacob, but Israel, because you have struggled with God and with humans and have overcome.”
29 Jacob said, “Please tell me your name.”
But he replied, “Why do you ask my name?” Then he blessed him there.
30 So Jacob called the place Peniel,[g] saying, “It is because I saw God face to face, and yet my life was spared.” (Genesis 32:24-30)



The angel of the Lord then gives specific instructions on how for Peter to dress in order to get out of the prison safely. He first tells him to “put on his clothes and sandals, and wrap a cloak around and follow me.”


I think of what would have happened if he did not do as instructed. He could have put on his sandals and the cloak around himself, but he would be noticed fully that he was an escape prisoner.

Something we need to be on guard with is when it comes to the enemy, his plans are to harm us, to deceive us and torment us. I cannot imagine that Peter would have lived through the ordeal if he was noticed as an escape prisoner.


What is interesting in this scene the most is how Peter’s chains had fallen to the ground and he thought it was all a “dream.” In a sense, he did not really believe that his chains had come off him, he did not really believe he had been freed from bondage.


We can all relate to this part. One of the struggles in knowing our idenitity in Christ is knowing He has set us free. FROM ALL THINGS.


There was a series of events that happened in my past that seemed to repeat itself through each relationship in my life over time. It was a story that fueled the fear of rejection and other fears would stay at the surface too. Not too far back, I was having a conversation with someone and I shared about this situation that had happened, and fully expected that it would be taken out of context like many times in my past.

However, this time that was not the case. This time because it was a conversation with someone that has had a chance to know me, because of what the Lord revealed to them…and for the first time, I can fully say, it broke the chains off of me.

It was as if the Lord was saying, “ You are not who they said you were.”

And ever since that conversation it has been hard to have a good footing…I will often sit and think of it and just cry and say aloud, “ I am really free of that.”


In the movie, “ Shawshank Redemption,” one of my favorite parts of the movie, which is kinda gruesome but stuck out so much to me was when the old man was set free from prison but did not know how to live life after that, and he ended up hanging himself.


I think that can be us too, I think have to learn a new way to “walk” just like Jacob did when he was struck by the angel of the Lord.


Peter was led out of the prison and once he and the angel were cleared by the length of the street the angel of the Lord left him to walk on his own, and it was then standing in the street Peter realized he was no longer in prison.

He says to himself, “ Now I know without a doubt that the Lord has sent his angel and rescued me from Herod’s clutches and from everything the Jewish people hoped would happen.”


Peter started out being bound by chains in prison, with no means of escape. He probably thought that was how his life would end. He probably thought that God would leave him there because he was called to die at that time.


We have to get out of the mindset that we are bound to the lives we have. We have got to get of the mindset that “ God must have this planned for me.”

And when He sets us freewe need to walk in it!


“It is for freedom that Christ has set us free. Stand firm then and do not let yourselves be burdened again by the yoke of slavery.” (Galatians 5:1)












LSOF: Rise and Shine

Sometimes I wake before the sunrise, and I’ll drive 35 minutes to the beach just to watch the light first pierce the surface of the horizon. I love to stand there and witness a new day, fresh with new mercies. It is interesting that the sun has a “specific,” time to rise, and its as if the Lord makes it known how rest is important because the length of the night. Everything has its timing, and a purpose tied to a promise.

In Genesis 15, Abraham had a conversation one night with the Lord, He said to Abraham, “Look up to the heavens and count the stars—If indeed you can count them, so shall your offspring be.” This was a promise that the Lord made to Abraham. Further in Genesis 22, we can read that the Lord tests Abraham’s obedience by having him sacrifice his son Isaac. The Lord stops him and says these words, “ I swear by myself, declares the Lord, that because you have done this and have not withheld your son, your only son, I will surely bless you and make your descendants as numerous as the stars in the sky and as the sand on the sea shore…”

It is so interesting to me how God speaks first in Genesis 15 to establish the covenant promise but to not actually confirm it until He saw the obedience of Abraham, “ Because you have done THIS.”

God will not give us what He is not ready to reveal.

I remember attending a conference a few years ago and there was this one speaker that was a football coach and he shared a story about a player that had tried out over and over, but in the end never got to play. The player tried the first year and did not make it, tried the second year and did not make it but did much better than the first time, but instead of preparing again for the next time he became discouraged and gave up. The coach contacted him to try out the next year because he had seen the determination and wanted to personally offer him a chance to try out and he lost the chance because he had lost not only the determination to play the game, but he lost the will. He saw not making the team as losing instead of an opportunity to continue to prepare until there came a time he was ready to play and make the team.

I love Ecclesiastes 3:11, because it simply states, “ He makes everything beautiful in its time.”

I think we often can look at the Lord as if He somehow wants to jip us out of the desires of our hearts, but Jeremiah 29:11 states, “ For I know the plans I have for you, declares the Lord, plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you a hope and a future.”

I found something interesting while studying out the word, “ready,” and its interesting because in Hebrew text according to Strong’s H3559, it also means, “ to prepare,” and what is further interesting is when I looked at one of the scriptures 1 Chronicles 28:2 it states, “ And rose to his feet.” So the same word for ready and prepare also could be suggested could mean to “rise.” Looking further in that scripture it also states, “ I had it on my heart to build a house for a place of rest.” So in essence it might just be refering to the building as “prepare,” but even in building something is developing and rising is about something starting from one level and continuing onto the next level. So maybe we can suggest that prepare is to “rise up,” and to be ready is to “walk it out,” or “let it shine.”

I am in a place of preparation, but there are also areas I am aware the Lord has revealed I am ready to walk in. I think it is in preparation that most of the revelation happens to us.

When we try a shoe on at the store we often believe right then and there that they are “perfect,” for us, but then after buying them and wearing them the first day, most of the time we develop blisters because we have to, “ break them in.”

It is the same as when we step into areas we are now allowed to walk in. We realize the shoes are very uncomfortable. We realize that what we have always seen the position to look like from a far is a lot more than we may have thought.

And just like “breaking in,” shoes by dealing with blisters, we realize there are going to be times when situations happen when holding our position and standing for truth can break our heart. But we continue to walk anyway, because the journey is about growing into who we are called in every sense.

Being confident in this, He who began a good work in you will complete it until the day of Christ Jesus.” (Philippians 1:6)

We must allow ourselves to continue to grow, continue to develop, and continue to be teachable. If we stop in the middle it will be much harder to get going again. And we must believe in God’s plan, and have confidence in it. He does not hide things from us, He just reveals them when they are ready.

Here at night: a poem

Here at night…

Here at night as the bittersweetness of the day fades from memory…
I soak in music that speaks of your love and belief of your power…
Here at night as the season of paradise won and paradise lost, sowing and reaping, giving and taking finally lets my soul rest…
I lay back on my pillow and through the crevice of a wicker headboard I see the moon…
Here at night as I look above, I’m reminded that you love me through the deepest crevices of my heart…
Here at night as I let the moonlight cover the room…The world socializes about mindless chatter, heartache and hunger grows all the more, and hopes are torn away…
Here I am, Here at night comforted that I matter to you…
Here at night though the world may fear, and people don’t know where to turn…
You are the light guiding sight,
Through all the day, and even….                   Here at night.

LSOF: Healed, Restored, Renewed…

There are many old houses in the area that I live in, and some date all the way back to 1900’s, when there were still dirt roads, Western Union telegraphs, and horse and buggies. The house across from me was built in 1924, and sometimes when I look over at it in the morning before work I cannot help but wonder about its history. Recently, this house was sold again, painted on the outside and restored on the inside.

My friend and I were talking the other day and this verse of scripture was really on my heart,
“ They will rebuild the ancient ruins, and restore the places long devastated; they will renew the ruined cities that have been devastated for generations.” (Isaiah 61:4)

“They will REBUILD the ancient ruins…”

A house possibly so old could very well have damage to the roof, or the siding, or the foundation itself could begin to crumble.

We all have places that have been damaged, and many of us could admit our foundations have had places of crumbling.

I remember a verse that God gave me in regards to healing one evening, and it was so profound to me because of how He revealed to me the process,
“ He heals the broken hearted and binds up their wounds.” (Psalm 147:3)

The Lord showed me that healing is a two step process.
1. He makes whatever we are dealing with bearable to continue on
2. He slowly starts to take care of the damaged parts of us.

“They will RESTORE the places long devastated…”
I watch the construction on the house for weeks, and each day I came home from work I would see something look back to what it may have back in the day.
Perhaps the stairs are being nailed back into their grooves, or perhaps there were windows that were broken or doors off hinges due to moisture.  Slowly each week it was more restored.
We all have parts of us that need to be restored. We all have parts of us where maybe it was a relationship, an identity, or some sort of situation that once the healing began then slowly we saw evidence of it being restored.

“They will RENEW the ruined cities that have been devastated for generations…”
I came home the other day from work and the house across the street had a completely different paint. It honestly took some getting used to, because I was used to seeing this white and blue house that now had tan and dark brown colors.
The family that had moved there wanted a different color scheme, they wanted a porch built on the side of the house, and they wanted the plant hangers on the outside of the windows removed.
It looked like a completely different home.  I knew from seeing it every day the changes that were made.

Personal Affirmation
Just like that house, there were parts of you and I that have to heal, be restored, but also be renewed.
I can tell you that just like the new paint on that home across the street I did not really recognize myself in the mirror for awhile. The more I wondered if things would go back to what they, “were,” or what was, “ comfortable,” for me, the more they did not.
We cannot be the same people, doing things the same way, and expect a new result….it just cannot happen.

Our culture places such emphasis on getting back to the OLD you, but if we did that what stops us from falling into the same habits…we have to change…in every area that is unhealthy.
If I were the same person, my mind would still attack me so much so that I would literally concentrate on everyone around me and wonder what they thought of me….or I would think what they “would soon,” think of me.
If I were the same person, I would not believe God could make me truly free of what I had been through.
If I were the same person, I would spend every day convincing myself that I was not good enough to be used for God and comparing myself to others.
I do not have the same attitude or perspective in my life in many areas.

To be renewed means you trust that God knows better.
Trust Him when He tells you that there is something inside you that He needs to deal with… and you let Him….Trust Him with relationships. Trust Him with your workplace, with your family, and with your health.
To be renewed means to trust that the paint God will use will look better than it did before– The artist completes His work with certainty.
My Pastor said to me the other day, “ Your eyes look good,” and of course I did not pay attention and said, “ Oh thank you, but its just this new mascara I am using.”
And He shook his head, “ No that is not what I mean. The eyes are a window to the soul, and I can see your soul is doing well.” Sometimes we do not always recognize that God has changed us or, “renewed,” us, and sometimes He has to find ways to show us.
If we truly believe the Lord can heal us, and then believe He can restore us, and then believe He will renew us…we will have a completely different life then we have ever known…

LSOF: Places of Desperation

I was sitting down with a friend a month or so ago, and I was sharing with her things God was doing and that I was learning. Her response surprised me…, “ Why do you sound so impatient?.”….

I looked at her with such a confused expression, I was telling her the good…I was telling her what God was working in me, and doing in my life…I was telling her all He was showing me…and then I took a moment to think about it…

Even though I had seen Him do many great things in me, and around me…even though I knew how good He has made so many areas….even though I had learned so much….
I was not content.

Since that conversation I really have been praying and seeking the Lord on this, and what I have realized that it was not impatience that my friend saw that day, she saw there was still some places in me that spoke louder for God to work in and move in…then the things He had.

I had places of desperation swelling up inside me, and clearly showing on my face…

It is truly a never-ending battle to be content in the places God has already placed His signature as, “completed,” whether it be healing of an illness, a relationship, and other things…but Paul was not exactly, “ A spring chicken,” when He wrote out,   ” I have learned to be content in all things…”

I had a Word spoken over me recently. I believe there are people out there with a gift to give the words straight from the heart of the Lord, and this was said, “ You have been waiting for me to do great things, You have seen me do many great things…Greater things are yet to come.”

The person had no idea of my story, and what the last year has been like.

What is so interesting in what was spoken was how well God knew my heart, because He started with, “ You have been waiting for me to do great things…” but then adding, “ You have seen me do many great things…”

He was telling me, “ Let what I have done speak louder than what is still, “ Under construction.”

Therefore we do not lose heart. Though outwardly we are wasting away, yet inwardly we are being renewed day by day. (2 Corinthians 4:16)

Pastor spoke last night about our, “ Divine Design,” and how God moves us into the places we are called….We all have a starting point. We all have a place of, “ rite of passage,” and we all have a place where we will move into the life we have called to walk in…

But it is always God starting with the pen. It is not us, and it is not up to us.

The Lord makes firm the steps
of the one who delights in him;
though he may stumble, he will not fall,
for the Lord upholds him with his hand. (Psalm 37:23-24)

He orders our steps. He knows exactly where are are meant to be…He orders exactly what we are to say, and when we are to say it…

If we were really to think about it, “ The places of desperation, “ are really those places we do not yet trust God in or place our faith in that He can overcome.

I was writing something the other day to someone, and said so many things about how awesome God has brought more clarity in, “ this,” area and “that,” area…
But then when I spoke about the areas I still knew I needed Him to work in…I felt the anxiety rise up….I had fear in these areas…not one iota of peace…not one iota of faith…

I have seen Him do some amazing things…and yet in these areas I struggle…

When I thought of this I had the image of Peter when Jesus was being captured the night. Peter cutting off the man’s ear…after everything Jesus had taught him…” Turn the other cheek,” and that it was no longer, “ eye for an eye.”….

I believe I had this image, because God is telling me, “ You cannot fight this…Only I have the power to take this on, as I have also done in the other things.”

Jesus took on the cross to break the power of sin that rules over us. To break the chains from the enemy forever.

There is nothing inside us that says, “ I can take care of this if I just talk it out more, if I just blog about it more, if I just run around the block more…etc.”

The only good in us is Jesus, and it is not us in anyway that “upholds” ourselves in our lives, it is not us that can “ order” exactly where we want to step next, what the plan is for us next looks like…It is the Lord…Only the Lord.

It is His battle. He breathed us into this life, and He knows how to overcome it. 

“ Lord Jesus, I come to you to ask you to help us all to see that you are constantly working in us, and that we are being renewed day by day to not the standards we set for ourselves, but by the standards set by grace. Help us to know that you can overcome all things, Help us to be reminded daily on this, and help us to be content in you, and all you’ve done. In Jesus name, Amen.”